I might kill myself tomorrow but I'm not completely sure yet, just been thinking about it very hard for the last couple hours or so. Other than having a medical problem that is bothering me, there is one other thing going on that is pushing me to the end. There was this bank I used to go to, from 2012 I think until 2024. I had good credit with these guys for most of those 12 years, until 2024 came along, I was struggling financially and these pieces of shit at the bank kicked me while I was down, they closed my checking account and took me to court over a stupid loan I couldn't pay off, even after I was hospitalized in 2024 after nearly killing myself then.
What I'm thinking about is buying a really long, thick, and strong nylon rope tomorrow. I want to tie one end of the rope to one of the light posts in the parking lot of this bank and make a noose with the other end. If I do that, I will get in my running car, put the noose around my neck, and slam on the gas pedal. I want to decapitate myself and crash my car into the building. I want to make a public spectacle out of my suicide so I will be in the news. I want the world to know my name and how much I hate being here. I want everyone to know who Lost in a Dream is and no matter what happens, I will stand with SASU.
What I'm thinking about is buying a really long, thick, and strong nylon rope tomorrow. I want to tie one end of the rope to one of the light posts in the parking lot of this bank and make a noose with the other end. If I do that, I will get in my running car, put the noose around my neck, and slam on the gas pedal. I want to decapitate myself and crash my car into the building. I want to make a public spectacle out of my suicide so I will be in the news. I want the world to know my name and how much I hate being here. I want everyone to know who Lost in a Dream is and no matter what happens, I will stand with SASU.
