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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Today, I took 200 mg of tramadol to help me get out of bed. Still had SI and just feeling distressed and unpleasant.

The support worker asked me how I am and I put my thumbs down. Why, he said. You saw your family yesterday. It's inside my head I said.

Yesterday, my family were really kind to me. But inside my head it was a 3/10 day - and that was with a little cocaine in the AM to keep me going.

Anyway, today I had to get off bus as about to be sick. Because of the tramadol. Then on the way back I was sitting on a luggage rack and literally farted in a woman's face. I said it was medication.

All of this sounds unimportant but it is the lengths I have to take to get out of bed and also the unpleasantness of living with this mental illness. Fucking fed up.

These days are unpleasant with new indignities. Euch to my life. Fuck my life.
 
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