Today is my final day

[ketopia]

It's 8 am now, I have lots to do today.

Taking my cat to a vet appointment this morning, have some cleaning to do, and then im getting lunch with my friend which will be my last meal.

I have a hotel room to go to after, where I'll go for a swim for awhile and then go set up the room. I am bringing a notebook to write as much as I can to get my final thoughts down on paper.

Then, after midnight, im going to take my SN and pass while looking at a mountain view.

I know i have panicked a lot but ultimately I feel good about my decision to leave after a couple good days. I want to feel peaceful, warm. And happy. Why wait until things get so bad again that it's impulsive and reckless? Everything is perfect for tonight.

I wont say im excited, but I feel strong and safe. Solid. Ready.

Thank you to everyone here for your support and advice the last couple weeks

 

[bankai]

That sounds nice and seems like a well thought out plan. I've enjoyed your posts here. I hope everything is peaceful and you find the courage if you decide to go through with it.

If you decide to back out, there's no shame in it.


I hope you're reunited with your mother at the end of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

That is a lot to do for the day, you are strong and I'm glad that you can feel safe. Wishing you all the best as you deserve and sending love and hugs your way. Thanks for being a caring member, you know where to find us if needed.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish, whatever the outcome. Go with our best wishes, or return to a welcome.

 

[DTA]

Best of luck to you! May you find peace.

 

[lemonandcapers]

It's 8 am now, I have lots to do today.

Taking my cat to a vet appointment this morning, have some cleaning to do, and then im getting lunch with my friend which will be my last meal.

I have a hotel room to go to after, where I'll go for a swim for awhile and then go set up the room. I am bringing a notebook to write as much as I can to get my final thoughts down on paper.

Then, after midnight, im going to take my SN and pass while looking at a mountain view.

I know i have panicked a lot but ultimately I feel good about my decision to leave after a couple good days. I want to feel peaceful, warm. And happy. Why wait until things get so bad again that it's impulsive and reckless? Everything is perfect for tonight.

I wont say im excited, but I feel strong and safe. Solid. Ready.

Thank you to everyone here for your support and advice the last couple weeks

I wish you nothing but the best and hope you are able to find the peace and relief you are searching for

 

[ketopia]

That sounds nice and seems like a well thought out plan. I've enjoyed your posts here. I hope everything is peaceful and you find the courage if you decide to go through with it.

If you decide to back out, there's no shame in it.


I hope you're reunited with your mother at the end of it all.

Thank you, me too </3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace!

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I'm sorry for what you went through.
I read some of it in a different post, and it sounds absolutely horrible.

I hope you'll find the peace you want ❤
If you change your mind we're here. Otherwise safe travels

 

[Cauliflour]

You have a cat? Does it have a secure future home?

 

[ketopia]

You have a cat? Does it have a secure future home?

Yes they do

 

[Cauliflour]

Yes they do

oh okay. I was worried for a sec because I think it's cruel to commit suicide if one has pets but you seemed to have thought things through.

 

[Doll Steak]

I wish I could give you a hug, I'm sorry it would have to come to this.

 

[kitkat9234]

Wishing you peace.

 

[gothbird]

Whatever's waiting out there, I hope it's quiet. I hope it's kind.

See you in the stars.

 

[ketopia]

my happy and social girl. She will get to be around other cats

 

[Alexandra0]

View attachment 169376my happy and social girl. She will get to be around other cats

She is a miracle, but she will miss you.
I am glad that your last days were good. I hope I will feel the same on my last day. You are very brave. Good luck and all the best

 

[Britney Spears]

Rest in peace, little angel, a big hug.

 

[Mary Janex]

Good luck. See you on the other side my friend

 

[ketopia]

It's 1 pm now. Lunch plans turned into dinner plans so I might have to wait until 4 am or simply not fast the full 8 hours. Honestly the accounts I've heard of people not fasting seem to be fine, if anything less burning and nausea. We will see

 

[opheliaoveragain]

It's 1 pm now. Lunch plans turned into dinner plans so I might have to wait until 4 am or simply not fast the full 8 hours. Honestly the accounts I've heard of people not fasting seem to be fine, if anything less burning and nausea. We will see

I would recommend not deviating from the pph and guides on here re: protocol. the fast is included for good reason and 8 hours, id say is the minimum. if you have any doubts, it's ok to wait. the option isn't going anywhere. we're here for you

 

[Ihatemonday]

Yours sounds like a peaceful last day, and I hope you can get the most out of every moment. Whatever the outcome shall be, I hope it will bring you peace. Sending lots of love

 

[darksouls]

good luck
wish you the best
hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[lonergirl_26]

Wishing you the best of luck!
I hope you find peace

 

[karakoltriste]

Peace and love

 

[Galahad]

Do keep posting here and please also come straight and tell us if you change your mind.

Don't feel pressured into doing it because you posted here.

If the time doesn't feel right don't do it.