Venting today is my birthday

[hotelandrea]

i am a 26 year old man. i'm tired of the sentiment that "my life is just getting starting." i have known nothing other than suffering and in exactly 2 weeks, i will ctb.

i spent last night with my ex fiance, he is the only person i have ever truly loved. he kissed me and it gives me great peace that he is the last person i will ever share an intimate moment with. there's something poetic in there about a forever bond, i just can't put it into words right now.

i will have the apartment alone tonight since my roommates are going to a party. it's tempting to move my attempt to tonight, but that's risky. there is a good reason i have chosen the day i have and i need to stick with it for the highest chances of success.

 

[Zura]

happy birthday man I hope you have some fun on your birthday maybe giving yourself a treat
also best of luck to you for whatever you chose in 2 weeks whether its you going for the attempt or you chosing to live

 

[kufajoy]

Happy birthday. Hope you find what are you looking for. Sending love

 

[the_world_is_on_fir]

Also my birthday today so, happy birthday to us. I totally understand the feeling that u have towards your ex, I wish mine was here too since I'm planning to CBT when I will have all to occurrence. So good luck and I hope u get all the peace u need.

 

[BradGuy123]

Happy birthday. I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you find some happiness and fun today.

 

[darksouls]

happy birthday,
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[CatLvr]

Birthdays are SUCH emotionally charged days for people like us, huh?? All that said, I hope your birthday is what you need it to be -- whatever that looks like for you. Do your best to try and enjoy at least a moment, even if all that looks like is sitting outside and watching the sun set.

 

[fallen.dove]

i am a 26 year old man. i'm tired of the sentiment that "my life is just getting starting." i have known nothing other than suffering and in exactly 2 weeks, i will ctb.

i spent last night with my ex fiance, he is the only person i have ever truly loved. he kissed me and it gives me great peace that he is the last person i will ever share an intimate moment with. there's something poetic in there about a forever bond, i just can't put it into words right now.

i will have the apartment alone tonight since my roommates are going to a party. it's tempting to move my attempt to tonight, but that's risky. there is a good reason i have chosen the day i have and i need to stick with it for the highest chances of success.

happy birthday i hope youll find the peace youre looking for

 

[so sad]

Happy birthday, buddy!

 

[Cyc]

Happy birthday :)

 

[hotelandrea]

Birthdays are SUCH emotionally charged days for people like us, huh?? All that said, I hope your birthday is what you need it to be -- whatever that looks like for you. Do your best to try and enjoy at least a moment, even if all that looks like is sitting outside and watching the sun set.

maybe it's a bit twisted, but buying the necktie for my attempt was a genuinely enjoyable moment. i'll try to catch the sunset too :)

 

[Tobacco]

I wish you a happy birthday!