Story Tired

[wizzlefox]

Hey, this is my first post. Been visiting this site for over a year. Wondered if anyone else thinks they're ok, it's just the world that's toxic? I always feel like I'm gonna check out. I can't picture a future for myself. I don't know who I am anymore really. The world is to loud. I want to scream/cry but I don't do either. I get up, go to work 7 days a wk, struggle to not take cocaine (because why wouldn't I take it?). Everyday is boring and a constant struggle. I'm 41 n honestly don't wanna reach 42. I'm to chicken shit to finish myself off.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I am tired of living. For me, the problem is this existence rather than myself. I see my desire to die as perfectly rational. Life is tedious and there is unlimited potential for suffering, there is no limit as to how bad it can get. I dread the future. I cannot deal with this life for decades longer. It is not cowardly feeling as though you cannot leave this world, us humans are programmed to survive and taking our lives is hard. If it was easier I would be already gone.

 

[Apricity]

Too many people are selfish and entitled, and many are overly sensitive. The conspiracy theories are getting more ridiculous by the day as well. Not many have have a sense of honor, nor do they exhibit integrity. So yeah, it's definitely gotten pretty shitty in the last 20 years, but it's not the world that's gotten bad, it's the people in it.

 

[wizzlefox]

Yes, I am tired of living. For me, the problem is this existence rather than myself. I see my desire to die as perfectly rational. Life is tedious and there is unlimited potential for suffering, there is no limit as to how bad it can get. I dread the future. I cannot deal with this life for decades longer. It is not cowardly feeling as though you cannot leave this world, us humans are programmed to survive and taking our lives is hard. If it was easier I would be already gone.

100% nail on the head. People are vile, cruel, greedy, selfish. I don't understand why anyone brings children into this world. I can't wait to not be here anymore. I 'pray' for cancer so I don't have to feel guilty about wanting to end it myself.. x

Too many people are selfish and entitled, and many are overly sensitive. The conspiracy theories are getting more ridiculous by the day as well. Not many have have a sense of honor, nor do they exhibit integrity. So yeah, it's definitely gotten pretty shitty in the last 20 years, but it's not the world that's gotten bad, it's the people in it.

Totally! I have anxiety everyday. The daily news tears my heart out. Friends say "we'll don't watch the news then", I think that's ignorant personally. I feel helpless. Let alone my own daily (which seem nothing compared to others suffering) struggles. Money, bills, worrying about will I have a roof over my head in 4 months. I work my ass off n have nothing to show. It feels very pointless and endless. X