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Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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Well, this is it. I'm fairly new to the site. Yet I have been listening to your stories and discovering conversations for about a year and a half. I always wanted to at least find some respite before I exit on my last day. I have some SN I intend to ingest, but before I do so, I just want to at least get some comfort and closure.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
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Great thread title
 
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Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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Great thread title
Thanks.
I remember seeing a post about the unfair treatment of someone in a "behavioral center". I've had some myself. The biggest drawback to this decision is that if I fail, I'll be sent to one again. I'm afraid of that possibility.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

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Dec 20, 2020
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Thanks.
I remember seeing a post about the unfair treatment of someone in a "behavioral center". I've had some myself. The biggest drawback to this decision is that if I fail, I'll be sent to one again. I'm afraid of that possibility.
I don't think you will fail with SN. Seems to me only those who want to be found fail with SN . Especially with back up dose
 
Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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I don't think you will fail with SN. Seems to me only those who want to be found fail with SN . Especially with back up dose
I didn't really follow the instructions to the T. I just bought some materials that were compatible, so I'm not really sure. I know the recent top thread post said that Test Doses can be fatal, but I can't be sure unless I actually tried it
 
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Niirvana

Niirvana

♥Soon♥
Sep 18, 2020
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Do you have anti emetics or any other secondary medicine?
I didn't really follow the instructions to the T. I just bought some materials that were compatible, so I'm not really sure. I know the recent top thread post said that Test Doses can be fatal, but I can't be sure unless I actually tried it
 
Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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Do you have anti emetics or any other secondary medicine?
Yeah, I have the Anti Emetics and The Acid Regulator, it's just that I have no way to measure what's appropriate for me
 
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Sea Turtle

Sea Turtle

She/Her ✨ Achieving True Peace
Aug 12, 2020
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Suggest testing the SN to ensure efficacy
 
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fight_club

fight_club

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Feb 15, 2022
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Is there anything I or anyone else could do to support you on your journey? Conversations you've been meaning to have? Knowledge you'd like to impart? I am always a listening ear, even if you'd just like to tell me about your favorite band or TV show, a cause you care about, someone or something you love.
 
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Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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I'm planning on doing it tommorow. But yeah, I'd like a chat about a lot of things. I like films, music and games. I just want to at least feel a little welcomed while I spend my last few moments on this site and on earth.
 
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ameliacecelia

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Mar 11, 2022
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Well, this is it. I'm fairly new to the site. Yet I have been listening to your stories and discovering conversations for about a year and a half. I always wanted to at least find some respite before I exit on my last day. I have some SN I intend to ingest, but before I do so, I just want to at least get some comfort and closure.
How do you intend to get closure and comfort, if you don't mind sharing?
 
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Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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How do you intend to get closure and comfort, if you don't mind sharing?
Oh jeez, I didn't get to see this, I'm sorry. I just want to do the things I've always had fun doing, even trying new things. I don't really talk to other people much, but I just want to "Soften the blow" so to speak.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I hope you manage to find the closure and comfort you are looking for. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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fastlife

fastlife

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Jan 21, 2022
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safe travels friend I am also leaving this month
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
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Hi! I'm sad and happy for you that you can now choose your end. How are you feeling about going? I was supposed to go last week with SN but my boyfriend suddenly had a sick leave so didn't have the house for myself. Don't know when I'm going now.
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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Yeah, I have the Anti Emetics and The Acid Regulator, it's just that I have no way to measure what's appropriate for me
I don't have a scale either. I used to as I smoked weed/did drugs but the people I'm living with will get sketched so it's a no go. I'm using 1 1/2 measuring cup tablespoon.
Is there anything I or anyone else could do to support you on your journey? Conversations you've been meaning to have? Knowledge you'd like to impart? I am always a listening ear, even if you'd just like to tell me about your favorite band or TV show, a cause you care about, someone or something you love.
You're amazing. Thank you for being here.
 
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Alistair Mercury

Alistair Mercury

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Jul 12, 2021
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I hope you manage to find the closure and comfort you are looking for. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
Thank you. I also wish you the best in your endeavors.
Hi! I'm sad and happy for you that you can now choose your end. How are you feeling about going? I was supposed to go last week with SN but my boyfriend suddenly had a sick leave so didn't have the house for myself. Don't know when I'm going now.
To be honest, I'm really nervous. The outcome is not clear - it never is. I've had SN for at least 6 months now, but I just never get to use it. I kinda just... stared at it. Like these materials can bring an end to all the things I've built up and watched fall away. But after all, I'm confident that all of my suffering in this life will come to an end as well.
 
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