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restingplace

restingplace

Student
Mar 7, 2024
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The worst thing affecting my SI is not knowing what comes after. I'm not sure if anyone else experiences this but do you wish you could spectate your life after you die just to see what would happen and how people would react?

although it might sound childish, it's quite a big factor when it comes to my SI, I'd like to know what happens next and I guess where my consciousness goes.

Sucks thats science can't really do much to give us a definition answer.


Personally I've always believed that absolute nothingness is most likely what happens after death. Really hard to explain a concept like that though.

Any thoughts or ideas?
 
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BradGuy123

Specialist
Jul 6, 2025
308
There is no way to prove or disprove what happens in the afterlife. Different religions have different explanations. Who knows which one is right? Perhaps none of them are right and we simply cease to exist. For me, I believe in God and in heaven. But like I said there is no proof.
 
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Msvr

Member
Sep 9, 2024
97
The only thing Im concerned about is if suicide itself causes a change in what happens. If something exists beyond life, whether bad or good, ending my life an extra few years early means absolutely nothing compared to the eternity of an afterlife. However some religions suggest killing yourself automatically makes you go to "hell" or similar.
 
juniforest

juniforest

New Member
Apr 3, 2026
3
I was medically considered dead for almost 2 days from a past attempt. Death is nothing. You don't have any senses or consciousness. It's not even like you're seeing all black, it's just nothing. I almost fell into addictions trying to replicate that nothingness feeling, but I gave up because I realized nothing in this life would be able to truly replicate that feeling. Not even sleep. Getting that peace back is the main reason I want to CTB.
 
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Asya

Asya

See you at the curtain call.
Mar 17, 2026
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The Dead Line

The Dead Line

Member
Apr 7, 2026
36
If there is a god in the next life I would spit on his face
 
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bellaisdonewithlife

Student
Jan 29, 2026
111
I really relate to this. Not knowing if anything comes after this feels like a big reason why I stayed alive as long as I have. I believe in a continuation of consciousness, but there could be nothing.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,328
1 microsecond after my brain dies I can never exist again

I'm just my brain . A brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain : that's an extreme horror not something good . I'm glad at the point of Death that abomination comes to an end forever

That's one reason why to me Death / non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection never a chance for me to suffer any unbearable pain

A human is just another animal , cells , chemical reactions , a machine

 
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Btkeeg

Member
Feb 15, 2023
12
Fuck I hope there's nothing after. I'd be so incredibly pissed if I died and somehow continued with the same intense emotional pain and grief and intense PTSD and depression symptoms. I want nothing. I definitely don't want a front row seat to my family's grief. I just need it all to stop.
 
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intr0verse

intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
450
1 microsecond after my brain dies I can never exist again
And not only that; death will be the end of all experience including memory so it will be as if you never existed. I think about how, if i'm successful with my plan, i will not know it. It will be the last act i'll do without even remembering it.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Non-existence is all I hope for and believe in, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the suffering and torture of this terrible, cruel existence that I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering and to never suffer again is all I wish for.

Existence to me is the problem that only ever tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, this dreadful, painful existence should just never be imposed and it's so terrible how it was, all I want is peace, I just want to be permanently unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering and the peace of non-existence solves everything for me.
 
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restingplace

Student
Mar 7, 2024
154
1 microsecond after my brain dies I can never exist again

I'm just my brain . A brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain : that's an extreme horror not something good . I'm glad at the point of Death that abomination comes to an end forever

That's one reason why to me Death / non-existence forever is the ultimate perfection never a chance for me to suffer any unbearable pain

A human is just another animal , cells , chemical reactions , a machine


That's a very good point. I believe part of me fears the nothingness after death because existing is all I've ever known. It's scared to either be conscious somewhere that's unknown to you or stay forever unconscious after.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,825
95% chance of eternal oblivion

5% chance I am judged and sent to hell

Just being honest fam
 
anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
172
If we are something, we are energy. The electricity running around the universe generating life of all forms. This vessel dies, another one will come up. This vessel's memories, cares, feelings, all of it, will perish forever and will never come back. Yet we don't die. Not really.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that regardless of how it happens, when we're gone, as individuals, we're gone forever, but it's not a big deal 'cause in a broader sense life itself doesn't end, time is only ours to be perceived - therefore life just is, never was, will never end, never started. It's all good. This vessel is pained and tired and broken. This vessel, this individual, me, wants peace. I don't mind whatever else is in store. It's just me, myself, that's seeking for relief. I'll place whatever energy brought me into the hands of fate, the will of the universe. I'll be fine. Us, the entire concept of existence, the breathing soft animal that we're all infinitely miniscule atoms of will carry on.
 

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