• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

A

akwa

Member
Apr 20, 2024
38
My chronic illness that was previously well controlled came back with a vengeance. I've picked a date.

If anyone can send SN, I would greatly appreciate it. Otherwise, I have no choice but to eat a bullet. I will be decently medicated beforehand, but I'm terrified. It's going to be loud. It's going to hurt. But only for a moment. And then all of this will be over.

Those of you who are married, how are you getting things in order for your spouse to make it easier on them?
 
D

danter0id

Member
Oct 20, 2023
38
$150k in life insurance will be all hers, and I've confirmed with the insurer that they will pay benefits if I commit suicide. ironically, the same insurer manages my long-term disability benefits, which end after 2 years for any kind of mental illness - they'd literally rather I get it over with and die quickly than live and collect "too much money."

other than that, she has family she can live with and who will take care of her while she grieves. and she'll find someone else quickly enough - she's beautiful and kind and brilliant.
 
  • Like
Reactions: AndroidAmongHumans, fussyohno and Kusogaki
feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Whatever I have will pass to my spouse and they have family I'm sure they will move closer to. They may have to get a job and live in a more economical way but I feel confident they will be just fine and possibly even better off without me as I am a total drag since losing my son.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Kusogaki
let.me.let.go87

let.me.let.go87

Meh
Jul 12, 2024
302
My husband knows I'm suicidal. But he's half the reason. All we do is fight most of the time and he prefers his videos games over me. He's never home anyway. He just got a second job that pays more so he'll be fine. We can't afford life insurance unfortunately tho.
 
  • Like
Reactions: akwa
Kusogaki

Kusogaki

🎧
Mar 22, 2023
129
Whatever I have will pass to my spouse and they have family I'm sure they will move closer to. They may have to get a job and live in a more economical way but I feel confident they will be just fine and possibly even better off without me as I am a total drag since losing my son.
If you don't mind me asking i knowthis must be personal but how did you lose your son
 

Similar threads

Renato
Replies
3
Views
254
Offtopic
catlover20
catlover20
J
Replies
2
Views
241
Suicide Discussion
thelastmessiah
thelastmessiah
Hi_I_am_Dead_Weight
Replies
6
Views
472
Suicide Discussion
korin
korin
9mmisglutenfree
Replies
10
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
HereWeGo!
HereWeGo!