GravityUtilizer
Born to lose
- May 22, 2020
- 737
Rock and a hard place springs to mind? I dunno. Just thinking out loud.
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StuFin
Arcanist
- Oct 21, 2020
- 449
It's taking that final step isn't it. I had the weighing scales out last night to measure water and SN but just wasn't feeling it enough. Doubts started creeping in so I just went to bed.
Then woke up this morning really disappointed with myself.
GravityUtilizer
Born to lose
- May 22, 2020
- 737
How can one ever hope to fathom the unfathomable nature of death? Why does one even try? I'm just going round in circles today.
Maybe @StuFin's weighing scales are an apt metaphor for choosing between the devil you know and the one you don't.
mahakaliSS_MahaDurga
Visionary
- Apr 2, 2020
- 2,399
I have my two glasses and a measuring cup sitting on the table for weeks.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
at this point death seems more and more appealing so hopefully I eventually just dive into that train
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,868
Existence is just a fucking nightmare and I really wanna escape it
Time to fly
TTFN - time to fly now
- Nov 3, 2020
- 255
Reality used to be a friend of mine, now ctb is that friend...jump high and fly....
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,082
It's a great mystery we can never know without the experience of it. Obviously we are no more than the ground beef I buy and eat. Aside from that is there anything else? We are all about to find out some day.
What freaked me out was seeing an Xray of my head with the eyeballs on their stalks= was that really me? Not sure how to explain it but... we are not what we think we are.
Lastsauce
Experienced
- Dec 22, 2019
- 258
I can't comprehend non-existence. I yearn to cease existing, yet I'm terrified of oblivion. Stupid evolutionary traits keeping innocent people alive!
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,082
What gets me, is the voices from beyond, that answer questions sometimes. Spirit boxes and other such items.
I have had some experiences that left no doubt there is something, or people, very real and alive in some form that is invisible, dead people supposedly. One said it knew it (or he maybe I should say) and clearly answered "yes" when asked if he knew he was dead.Last edited:
GravityUtilizer
Born to lose
- May 22, 2020
- 737
It's funny cos I wrote that three days ago and now I could give a shit. The kind of depressed mood that will get me closer to ctb. Take me, oblivion!
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,298
Luckily it is my husband who decides when my life ends, so no philosophical conundrum for me. Only to get on with it.
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,082
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