Think that my suicide can take my mother life

[Olach]

I'm focused on suicide, but I'm afraid of what could happen after my death.
The first thing I think is that my mother can take her life because of grieving and my grandmother could make the same. They are so attached to me that this scenario is very plausible.
What can I do before ctb to prevent more terror to happen. Thanks in advance

 

[PaYo]

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[Olach]

Yes @PaYo, I've done it already.
Thank you

 

[Circles]

Honestly I believe nothing can help the pain of losing a child no matter how hard you try to reason with it. The only solace I take from the situation we find ourselves in is that I'm doing myself a favor by not experiencing any more pain. And if they can't live with it then what can we do about it? They're not the ones living our lives and it seems they would rather see you live being miserable than being free of pain. It's a hard predicament I know but it's up to us whether staying alive for others is even worth it but I'm beginning to doubt that.

 

[Olach]

Thank you a lot @Circles, you gave me a good point of view

 

[Hotsackage]

My mom would surely have a heart attack if she found me and I was ctb. I cant live with this pain but I dont wanna mess up my family so I'm stuck

 

[JustOverIt]

My mom would surely have a heart attack if she found me and I was ctb. I cant live with this pain but I dont wanna mess up my family so I'm stuck

One way or another life will mess anyone up in a number of ways. Someone passing is no different. Doesn't matter if its a tremendous emotional upheaval or at a low intensity.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I'll be staying at an undisclosed hotel when I ctb, that way my parents don't find me... I'm stuck too, they're the only reason I'm still here but I can't live like this much longer. They'll be broken but hopefully they'll understand one day

 

[Olach]

I'll be staying at an undisclosed hotel when I ctb, that way my parents don't find me... I'm stuck too, they're the only reason I'm still here but I can't live like this much longer. They'll be broken but hopefully they'll understand one day

Thank you, that's a good advice. I'll book a hotel.

 

[Oppenheimer]

The reason I´m still here are also my parents. I think It would be heartbreaking for them if I died of natural causes but they would move on, however if I ctb they would probably blame themselves somehow, and IT´S NOT THEIR FAULT. I wish I could make it look like an accident (but I don´t have the nerve to do something gruesome) or someway that it looked like I died sleeping of natural causes.