I'm managing to have a more positive outlook, at least today. A lot of it is due to a conversation I had with my ex. Her and her current boyfriend are having issues. As bad as this may sound, it does give me some hope.
I'm also looking into college a little more. Also considering applying to a housekeeper job at a nursing home. It pays $11 an hour and is menial, part-time work, and I'd deal with old people and funky smells I imagine, but i think it'll be better than fast food. Most of the work will likely be laundry, vacuuming, cleaning surfaces. It'll be gross sometimes but I imagine I could get used to it.
My car hasn't given me any trouble recently, so maybe I'm good in regards to that for a while. My cats been giving me more attention than she usually does, I'm just happy in general today.
My ex called me last night telling me how she feels like an afterthought to her current boyfriend and how he's talking to an ex. He actually said to her that she cannot talk to an ex but he can because it's different. I don't know how it is but to him it is. So she called me and talked about it, and I tried to ease her worries, specifically without giving advice. My main role was just actively listening. If they break up, I'm gonna try to reconcile with my ex and try to be better and do better. I might even try to seek more help for mental illness and be more open to medication if I had someone by my side like her supporting me. Either way, I wanted to share my little sliver of hope I got yesterday and how things are looking up.
I'm also looking into college a little more. Also considering applying to a housekeeper job at a nursing home. It pays $11 an hour and is menial, part-time work, and I'd deal with old people and funky smells I imagine, but i think it'll be better than fast food. Most of the work will likely be laundry, vacuuming, cleaning surfaces. It'll be gross sometimes but I imagine I could get used to it.
My car hasn't given me any trouble recently, so maybe I'm good in regards to that for a while. My cats been giving me more attention than she usually does, I'm just happy in general today.
My ex called me last night telling me how she feels like an afterthought to her current boyfriend and how he's talking to an ex. He actually said to her that she cannot talk to an ex but he can because it's different. I don't know how it is but to him it is. So she called me and talked about it, and I tried to ease her worries, specifically without giving advice. My main role was just actively listening. If they break up, I'm gonna try to reconcile with my ex and try to be better and do better. I might even try to seek more help for mental illness and be more open to medication if I had someone by my side like her supporting me. Either way, I wanted to share my little sliver of hope I got yesterday and how things are looking up.
