They asked me what's my inner motivation

[want2dienow]

I told them it died in the same pain thats took me.
The answer is only a name: Ymaqyhtan (you'll need to translate this too).

 

[noaccount]

That makes sense. :(

 

[want2dienow]

That makes sense. :(

yeah
in the end i felt i was a puppet made to sound the wya they wanted to hear, to make them happy they did their job right.
they didnt.

 

[noaccount]

who wants you to sound that way?
I hope you don't have to <3

 

[want2dienow]

doctors, all f them physiatrist, therapists. if im not want everyone else just wants me to be, im a nobody. a carbon copy
to hear me say and look (veil) happiness, improvement like everyone else. but i'm not like everyone.

 

[noaccount]

Yeah, I don't talk to therapists for basically that reason. :\

 

[want2dienow]

yes. i dont need to feel worse having to pay someone to talk to and being censored. (cant even say suicide with a panic ensuing). feels like an interview, cannot be me in my terra calm.