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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

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Sep 7, 2024
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I'm tired of failed attempts and that's why my next time will be with SN so that I don't fail. Im excited to die. Just putting it off for the people I love but I don't know how much longer that will last. I'm sorry I can't deal with the pain of being alive. I'm so thankful for the opportunity to end my life successfully. Right now I'm drunk to try to cope with the pain of losing my best friend. Sucks that this is my life. I don't know if I should leave letters for the children in my life, my nieces and nephews. I love them so much. I wish I died when they were too young to remember me. I'm in so much pain I just want to end my painful fucking existence

I'm feel so much guilt but it won't stop me from ending this painful existence. They say I'm good for the world but they don't think about how bad the world is for me.

I'm a shitty person and I deserve to die I hope I die soon

Anna
 
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zappynomore

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Its tough when one of the only reasons you have to put it off is because you don't want to hurt the people who you love.

How did you lose your best friend?

I think letters are good, as long as the tone is more what they meant to you, and you make it clear its not their fault.

Yeah the guilt is heavy. I feel it aswell.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I understand finding it painful to exist, I also just wish to be free from all the suffering but anyway I wish you the best.
 
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nomoredolor

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Sep 7, 2024
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Its tough when one of the only reasons you have to put it off is because you don't want to hurt the people who you love.
It really is. I am amazed that I've lived this long without ending it
How did you lose your best friend?
I think letters are good, as long as the tone is more what they meant to you, and you make it clear its not their fault.
I will. Thank you for feedback
Yeah the guilt is heavy. I feel it aswell.
I'm sorry u also have to cope with the horrible guilt
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I understand finding it painful to exist, I also just wish to be free from all the suffering but anyway I wish you the best.
I wish you the best too. You have suffered existence for a long time. I wish you were out of your misery. It's kind of uou to care for others on this site. I know how much existence pains you. Hugs
 
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