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WanderingTiger

WanderingTiger

Seeking peace amidst the chaos of the world.
Feb 16, 2025
31
Today, I found myself feeling extremely irritated due to personal reasons. Thoughts about this world overwhelmed me, intensifying my desire to escape it. I truly struggle to understand how 'normal' people manage to endure this world, living indifferently to the suffering of others simply for their own gain while so many endure immense pain. It feels incredibly exhausting to navigate life with autism, constantly exerting effort yet never seemingly getting anywhere, always feeling behind and weak due to this mental prison.

This world often feels like a genuine hell, and the absence of an option for euthanasia to find a peaceful escape is a bitter reality. I despise how individuals with mental disorders are treated so poorly, suffering through tortures that can be far worse than those experienced by 'normal' individuals. For me, life is persistently devoid of meaning, and I feel an overwhelming emptiness each and every day.

I find myself wishing for death as a means of fleeing from a society for which I feel utterly unfit.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this outpouring of my thoughts ❤️
 
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SadFoxDreamer83

SadFoxDreamer83

Student
Feb 7, 2025
145
Today, I found myself feeling extremely irritated due to personal reasons. Thoughts about this world overwhelmed me, intensifying my desire to escape it. I truly struggle to understand how 'normal' people manage to endure this world, living indifferently to the suffering of others simply for their own gain while so many endure immense pain. It feels incredibly exhausting to navigate life with autism, constantly exerting effort yet never seemingly getting anywhere, always feeling behind and weak due to this mental prison.

This world often feels like a genuine hell, and the absence of an option for euthanasia to find a peaceful escape is a bitter reality. I despise how individuals with mental disorders are treated so poorly, suffering through tortures that can be far worse than those experienced by 'normal' individuals. For me, life is persistently devoid of meaning, and I feel an overwhelming emptiness each and every day.

I find myself wishing for death as a means of fleeing from a society for which I feel utterly unfit.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this outpouring of my thoughts ❤️
I feel exactly the same, and although I have dreams in my heart that could make me happy, I know that we are slaves to disgusting money, and I know that my dreams are impossible, that is why I have more and more suicidal thoughts. I would be happy if I were free and could go fulfill my dreams, but the world is designed so that we are all slaves to money and only a few have the possibility to fulfill their dreams. Every day I feel more tired, sad, poor, alone, and overwhelmed. It makes no sense to live just to suffer. The world is garbage, the system is garbage, it is like a prison without bars.
 
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citrusrope

Student
Feb 13, 2025
117
I feel you so hard. I keep thinking and resenting the fact that if this world was maybe shaped differently, to be more empathetic and without all of the suffering, I could have been able to live a nice life free from all this anxiety and depression. It could have been good!!! And especially because society really isn't built for people who are nuerodivergent. This world is a disgusting place that keeps turning the handle to the machine regardless of if there are people who are getting crushed by it.

Money, violence, vapid consumerism... Disregard and lack of respect for our ecosystems. Lack of empathy. You're told to hustle, you get told "Oh, it's because you're all soft and weak and sensitive," with a cold scoff.

Maybe if this world was one where people could afford to be soft and sensitive, and be able to live their lives without having to sacrifice themselves, and slaving away... It could have been good. The fact that food and shelter isn't considered a human right, it's just fucked up.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,458
I really understand just wanting to be free from it all, I'd personally never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering, I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to be euthanised is denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I wish for is peace from this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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dontwakemeup

Wizard
Nov 11, 2024
693
We were never meant to fit in. The creators of this site created this space for us. It's not just another website, but a place where we feel normal amongst each other. A place we all can come and share our true thoughts. Yes, a bus come and go every minute, but we all are on our own journeys. We help each other on the bus or off the bus, and direct which bus is the best bus to take. Yea, that's how I describe this place.

Try to take life one day at a time. All we can do is wait, and our custom bus will soon arrive and we never have to do this again! Maybe try to educate people what it's like living with Autism while you're still here. Embrace your difference and when people who cross your path, they will member you when they think of Autism. I wish you the best, stay strong. We can't live forever!
 
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