The world after

[_habs1999]

hi—

i've been having lots of suicidal thoughts. 19 is tough. just thinking about the reality of it. when i carry it out, will the authorities look through my phone to find clues? will they see i was on suicide sanctioned? will they look at my social media? texts? what's fair game? will my family?

so, should i clear my phone before i do it? pack my dorm room up? i'm trying to think of all the loose ends i need to tie up.

really depressing set of thoughts, but, hey. here we are.

also, on this note, is there like a planning thread anywhere? not so much a method, but the lead-up.

writing letters and notes, emailing professors...how do i do it? there's a lot to navigate here.

it's crazy how much i feel the need to be in control even in death. i want to be in control of the narrative, how people see me, etc.

i don't want it it to get out i was on this forum, i don't want anyone to think that the internet (or anything besides my depression) caused it.

so yeah. that's all. thanks.


sorry for the vent. a lot going through my mind...

 

[Sanguinius]

As far as I know, if it was obviously a suicide, they won't try hard. If you'll leave a note thy will take it, but I don't think they'll look through your phone. Simply too much effort.
Even thoug I'll clear my phone.

 

[Crest33]

hi—

i've been having lots of suicidal thoughts. 19 is tough. just thinking about the reality of it. when i carry it out, will the authorities look through my phone to find clues? will they see i was on suicide sanctioned? will they look at my social media? texts? what's fair game? will my family?

so, should i clear my phone before i do it? pack my dorm room up? i'm trying to think of all the loose ends i need to tie up.

really depressing set of thoughts, but, hey. here we are.

also, on this note, is there like a planning thread anywhere? not so much a method, but the lead-up.

writing letters and notes, emailing professors...how do i do it? there's a lot to navigate here.

it's crazy how much i feel the need to be in control even in death. i want to be in control of the narrative, how people see me, etc.

i don't want it it to get out i was on this forum, i don't want anyone to think that the internet (or anything besides my depression) caused it.

so yeah. that's all. thanks.


sorry for the vent. a lot going through my mind...

You're over thinking this to much. Last time i checked committing sucide is not against the law. If a docter concludes the case is a sucide it gets closed immediately. Authorities have not the time nor resources to investigate every death of sucide attempt.

The persons who will deal with dorm or phone stuff is your family.