the vsed thread

[ninfanatic]

beginning: 10/25/24, about 9:30pm
ct: 11:09pm

i may receive comments discouraging or trying to discourage me from using this method. however, it is my preferred method from both an emotional and spiritual perspective. i have much experience with general water and dry fasting, and am confident in my ability to successfully "ctb" through used.

i have, in short, wanted to do this since i was about twelve. i feel it was something that was going to happen eventually. although i am slightly frightened, it is something i've made my mind up on. death is something that people are naturally frightened of. i am impoverished, alone, and, quite essentially, doomed, should i continue to go on.

i will likely pass away in during the first week of december. if i determine that i need to smoke in order to alleviate both hunger and nerves, i'll most estimately be gone on halloween.

i wish all the best here. this is something i both desire to do and need to do. there is no other way, and any other way would take a lifetime to accomplish. there is an ache in my chest and stomach that has been living there for a long time.

i will update this thread periodically. much love, and my gratitude for the existence of a forum as this is insurmountable.

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

Are you doing this on your own or with some help from others?

 

[ninfanatic]

Are you doing this on your own or with some help from others?

on my own. i have a thorough plan, partly of which involves leaving my apartment in the last few days to eliminate the chances of being found in time.
cd: 10/26/24
ct: 12:01

i've struggled with an eating disorder and cared too much about my weight. there is literally nothing going into my body right now and i don't even care about it.

physically, i'm strangely aware of body sensations that i was not before; specifically, hyperaware of my heartbeat. emotionally, i feel calm and at peace. mentally, my thoughts are sporadic, although not distressing at all.

 

[passer-by]

Good luck my friend, do update us on your progress if you can. I too am quite interested in this method, as I find it the most passive, least "self harming" way of going, even though the SI can become extremely strong on this one. I'm sure though, with enough will and determination one can push through.

 

[ninfanatic]

Good luck my friend, do update us on your progress if you can. I too am quite interested in this method, as I find it the most passive, least "self harming" way of going, even though the SI can become extremely strong on this one. I'm sure though, with enough will and determination one can push through.

i'm still going. the interesting thing to me about this method is that i'm not sure precisely when death will occur, but i would prefer it in sleep.

 

[passer-by]

i'm still going. the interesting thing to me about this method is that i'm not sure precisely when death will occur, but i would prefer it in sleep.

Are you doing no fluids as well?

mentally, my thoughts are sporadic, although not distressing at all.

Is this something usual for you, or the result of vsed? I can't never seem to able to shut my inner monologue lol

 

[ninfanatic]

Are you doing no fluids as well?

Is this something usual for you, or the result of vsed? I can't never seem to able to shut my inner monologue lol

yes, no fluids as well.

i think i just feel at peace (and likely am close to ketosis, lol).

 

[passer-by]

yes, no fluids as well.

i think i just feel at peace (and likely am close to ketosis, lol).

Oh yeah, keto-based diet kept me going for a while. Relatively the happiest time in my life. My mind caught up to me though after some time.

No fluids part is what scares me the most about this method, but it does shorten the span significantly, so that's good.

When I did my fasting, even though I allowed myself to drink water, I gradually lost my thirst. Like it would almost make me gag when I tried to drink it. On a day 4 or 5 I was basically just sleeping all day and it felt so peaceful, like I believed if I pushed through, I could just slip away in my sleep, unfortunately I didn't live on my own back then and it wasn't so peaceful for others watching this process lol

 

[ninfanatic]

Oh yeah, keto-based diet kept me going for a while. Relatively the happiest time in my life. My mind caught up to me though after some time.

No fluids part is what scares me the most about this method, but it does shorten the span significantly, so that's good.

When I did my fasting, even though I allowed myself to drink water, I gradually lost my thirst. Like it would almost make me gag when I tried to drink it. On a day 4 or 5 I was basically just sleeping all day and it felt so peaceful, like I believed if I pushed through, I could just slip away in my sleep, unfortunately I didn't live on my own back then and it wasn't so peaceful for others watching this process lol

i feel like many folks think it can't be completed without medical assistance, when in reality it very much can be, it just takes a lot of willpower. i find thirst easier to cope with than extreme hunger, and the thirst typically overpowers the hunger, if that makes sense.

i am surprised you've used this method as well. i was fairly close in the summertime as well to completing it but did not map out the specifics nor have as strong of will/discipline as i do now.

 

[passer-by]

i find thirst easier to cope with than extreme hunger, and the thirst typically overpowers the hunger, if that makes sense.

I can imagine that, even though i never really properly tried the dry fast. Hierarchically fluids are more important than food. And oxygen is more important than fluids lol

I hope it will be easy for me as well. I think I've read on some instances when an animal would go this way, mourning their partner. So it wasn't even physically ill.
I don't think it's that unusual, also I think ctb was overall more accepted back in old times by people as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[Praying 4 a Miracle]

on my own. i have a thorough plan, partly of which involves leaving my apartment in the last few days to eliminate the chances of being found in time.

When you leave your apartment, where will you go? (Not actual location, but type of location). If it's a hotel room, wouldn't that be even riskier? Also, how long have you been on VSED so far (approx.)?

 

[permanently tired]

After a few days you might have a burning sensation in your throat. I didn't eat for several days and it happened to me. Apparently, it's your stomach acid coming up. It makes it uncomfortable to swallow (ie when you swallow your saliva). I haven't gone so long without eating since and average one meal a day. But to avoid it perhaps try antacid and smth to soothe your throat cuz it drove me crazy.

 

[passer-by]

Any updates?

 

[vivi¬¬]

好的 luck

 

[justwannadip]

How long have you been going friend? You replied a while back on a post I made about seeking ways of being calm when ctb'ing. We resonated with each other on struggling with ocd and bpd. Why have you chosen this method over others considering how gruelling it is and long it takes?

 

[ninfanatic]

How long have you been going friend? You replied a while back on a post I made about seeking ways of being calm when ctb'ing. We resonated with each other on struggling with ocd and bpd. Why have you chosen this method over others considering how gruelling it is and long it takes?

hello,

i have still been going through starvation, but i have been drinking water. i decided an even more prolonged method as there are things that need to be done first. i still want to die as much as ever.
i hooe you are okay. i'm sorry you have bpd and ocd as well; extremely painful illnesses, but i'm glad we resonate with each other.

i have been starving and spitting any food out to avoid nutrients, which i noticed had lead to loss in bmi. i'm not comfortable encouraging it but i have an eating disorder history and have no other way of dying, so likely cardiac arrest or extremely low body fat will take me within the next two or three months.

feel free to message me if you need anything, please.