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longtime_lurker_123

longtime_lurker_123

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Sep 6, 2024
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I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for taking up space that was never meant for me. For standing in line beside you. For sitting next to you on the train. For speaking words that felt too heavy in your language. I tried to make myself smaller, quieter, easier to ignore. But no matter how much I bent, I was always too much.

I worked harder than I had strength for. Smiled through words that cut. I told myself it would get better, that if I proved I belonged, one day I actually would. But I see it now—I was only ever a guest in a place that was never mine. A shadow moving through your world, unnoticed until I became an inconvenience.

So I will go. Maybe from here, maybe from this world itself—I haven't decided yet. But I will disappear, just as you always wished I would. Not in anger. Not even in sadness anymore. Just… tired.

I never wanted to be loved. I only wanted to exist without being hated for it.

- Someone You Never Saw
 
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fallingtopieces

fallingtopieces

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May 6, 2024
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i'm so sorry you ever had to feel any of that and for what you must be going through. we are all guests in this place.
 
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I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
I am an empathic person, but I never saw it like this. Thank you very much for sharing. It is heartbreaking. I am so sorry for your pain and your fight. I really don't like immigrants who brake rules, not only because of me but also because of people like you. Some criminal immigrants causes hate against all immigrants. And people like you are the victims. I don't know where you live, but I think, in many countries are also kind and loving people. That don't heal the hate at all, but maybe it makes you stronger. I know many people who cares for immigrants. But I understand it is really difficult at all...

Much love to you. In this community you are welcome and you will be seen.
 
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