NSFW The Final Countdown

[donttalktome]

I made some calculations and I have like 5 days to throw myself under a train. That is because I kept increasing my xanax dose and im on like 30mg a day, and it's unlikely i will get more due to me being 100x times above the dose i should be on and i got some warnings in the system. Also it would cost me thousands to keep getting that much and i've been a broke dying skeleton for over a year. Well well well, what do you know? If you know you are going to get endless seizures and brain damage at the minimum maybe CTB won't be so difficult to do? Once i get to my last pill I'm going there and lying on the tracks/jumping in front of one whenever the first train comes. Nothing else much to say I suppose.

 

[Namelesa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world

 

[Shadows From Hell]

This is solely your choice(and anyone else who uses this method)on the train, but me personally don't think it's a good idea to step in front of a train.

I want to be dead, but I don't want to traumatize an innocent person, and I'm sure after you do the deed, the engineer will be having this nightmare for years.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[Jadeith]

I'd advise against it simply because you'll traumatize innocent bystander, probably for life. Other than that - painless journey to you.

 

[whywere]

I 100% agree with @Shadows From Hell as far as traumatizing the poor soul(s) operating the train.

CTB is a very personal choice, however putting another poor soul in the crosshairs and giving them nightmares for the rest of their lives is something that I could never do to another person ever, and I am NOT ever mean, just trying to be fair to all parties involved.

Please think and safe journeys whether here or elsewhere.

Walter

 

[human909]

I hope you can find peace soon and escape the suffering from this world.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

Hope you find what you're looking for OP.

 

[maniac116]

It sounds like you're in terrible pain.
I'm very pro choice but please don't expose others in your plan. People such as innocent train passengers, rescuers & the crew will be exposed to the grisly scene of your suicide. That can't be unseen.
Many people on this forum have been traumatized. That's why some people are here on the forum. Please don't traumatize others!
I only ask that you think this through.

 

[turnaround]

I wish you peace.

I know we all want a painless easy method but not everyone has access to it.

 

[DrinkingInHell]

I advise against this method because of the most likely outcome of traumatizing bystanders (along with the train conductor). But hey man, hope you can make the journey out of this life and be at peace. Wishing you the best in whatever you choose

 

[futurecorpse]

The story I'm about to share is not a suicide by train scenario, but by a semi-truck. I was helping out at a coroner's office one morning and I saw the dash cam footage of a pedestrian stepping in front of an oncoming semi-truck. Of course I feel sad for the victim and his family, but I feel more sad for the truck driver. He didn't have enough time to stop and so all he could do was watch this young man die in front of him as he heard the body whack the front of the truck.

I understand the desperation of wanting a way out and wanting long-lasting peace, but please don't involve innocent people.

 

[J&L383]

This is solely your choice(and anyone else who uses this method)on the train, but me personally don't think it's a good idea to step in front of a train.

I want to be dead, but I don't want to traumatize an innocent person, and I'm sure after you do the deed, the engineer will be having this nightmare for years.

I agree, it would be traumatizing to so many to either step out on the tracks or jump in front of a train. And also it might not even work you might just be messed up for the rest of your life.

But I also understand your need to get out of this place, I think there's ways to do it that would be less traumatic to others, and with a new 100% chance of success.

I hope you can find peace.