Discussion The desire to not be alive

[unHumam]

Does anybody else feel like they just don't want to be alive, but also doesn't really want to die? Like I'm not currently looking for methods or anything like that, it seems like so much work to plan out and everything. I just wish I could lay down in bed and cease to exist. I know a lot of people are afraid of what comes after death but to me that's the good part. Just endless nothingness.

 

[GreenTree]

Ideally I'd love to live and enjoy life as it can be beautiful. I know that path won't happen for me so I want to die. Wish it was easy to die if someone wants too.

 

[jodes2]

Yeah I guess I'm the same. I just don't want to hurt my gf. Also I don't particularly like the idea of how my method will feel. SN isn't the best way to go. But I have it nonetheless

 

[unHumam]

Yeah I guess I'm the same. I just don't want to hurt my gf. Also I don't particularly like the idea of how my method will feel. SN isn't the best way to go. But I have it nonetheless

If I could go without hurting the people I love it would insanely.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that in my case I certainly wish to be gone, in fact that's all that I've ever wished for as existing is something that I despise and see as not being worth enduring. I've always had a desire to not exist as I find comfort in the thought of being completely unaware of this horrific world, and of course life itself is what the true problem is.

But I'm also trapped here because of the difficulties, complications and risks involved in suicide, leaving this world is something that feels so hard to achieve for me. The fact is that suicide is unfairly and so unnecessarily difficult, and it really shouldn't be. I also wish to just cease to exist, there is nothing more ideal than the thought of dying in my sleep, but very sadly a death like that is simply not the reality for me.

 

[Tortured_empath]

Yea…….

 

[Forever Sleep]

Definitely. I doubt many people actually WANT to go through the process of dying- even natural death can be pretty nasty. But definitely- being dead sounds extremely appealing.

 

[Hyd999]

I feel the same. I dont want to hurt my family, in particular my mother, sister and dog. And alltho i picked a method and have the supplies i dont want to follow through with the plan. But im in so much mental pain that at i just want to be gone.

I feel trapped.

Just dont want to be here anymore

 

[nosoul]

Ideally I'd love to live and enjoy life as it can be beautiful. I know that path won't happen for me so I want to die. Wish it was easy to die if someone wants too.

That's what I hate, I remember being normal, I'm just an anxious depressed mess, can't sleep or eat well, everyday getting worse, shame because life is wonderful for many, my days are done I feel

 

[BloomingRose]

I believe that not existing would be better for me than existing, so I often think about, how it would be if I could just stop existing and disappear out of everybody's minds and memories as if I never would have been born.
I am also kinda afraid of the process of dying , though not because of the outcome (being dead), but risks of survival and getting severe damage done to my body/brain and feelings of people I would leave behind.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I'd recommend watching this video. It covers the topic quite well IMO.

 

[HyenaRadio]

Just to simply stop existing would be perfect. Also ideally there would be no trace of me too, like I never existed in the first place.

 

[Lok1_/./]

Just to end this struggle I'd take a peaceful exit yes

 

[Viranamari]

What you feel is understandable and I'm sure most feel that way. Personally, I don't wish to live no matter what happens. Ceasing to exist sounds ideal. Unfortunately, I'm still alive due to complications. Anyways, I hope things get better.