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Atropos

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Nov 4, 2023
2
I'm starting to think that I'll never make it. My inability to CTB only adds to the list of things in which I'm a total failure.

I wish I could be put down like a dog and get this over with once and for all.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,205
Not easy to live and not easy to die, either. It's such a conflicting feeling.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Je commence à penser que je n'y arriverai jamais. Mon incapacité à faire du CTB ne fait qu'allonger la liste des domaines dans lesquels je suis un échec total.

J'aimerais pouvoir être abattu comme un chien et en finir une bonne fois pour toutes.
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HereIGoAgain24

HereIGoAgain24

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Sep 2, 2024
66
Do you mean you can't CTB because of survival instinct, no access to the right methods, both, or something different?
In any case, I feel you. I've known HOW for years, but I haven't been able to bring myself to do it, no matter how bleak things get.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,450
Survival instinct,no Access on the right méthods,huge culpability with my family
 
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ladylazarus4

ladylazarus4

exhausted
May 12, 2024
262
I'm scared I'll never be quite ready and I'll live in this hell forever. I'm scared of doing it, too, not because I'm scared of death (quite the opposite), but I'm scared of failing and I really don't want to hurt my family.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,450
J'ai peur de ne jamais être tout à fait prête et de vivre dans cet enfer pour toujours. J'ai peur de le faire aussi, non pas parce que j'ai peur de la mort (bien au contraire), mais parce que j'ai peur d'échouer et je ne veux vraiment pas faire de mal à ma famille.
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