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Pretty Girl, Sick Mind
- Jun 28, 2025
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I have been researching a lot about CTB notes, because I will have to do mine very soon, even though it's tiring to do, it's something that I need to do.
Through all the notes I have researched however, there is one that sticks out to me, it's the one below made by Kevin Carter, a South African Photographer that was so haunted by what he witnessed in Sudan in 1993, he ctbed by CO the next year.
This is what was in his note found next to him:
'I'm really, really sorry. The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist. …depressed … without phone … money for rent … money for child support … money for debts … money!!! … I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings & corpses & anger & pain … of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners … I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky.'
- From Kevin Carter's CTB Note.
That poor poor man. It's so simple what he said, but in a few lines you can how much a human soul can suffer through so much torture. Little but effective.
I wish mine could be like this, but sadly I have too much to say, because of what little I did. But gosh it's so painful, to read those who hurt so much in whatever time they had.
(Just an extra bit of information, Kevin Carter actually took a photograph during his time in Sudan, called 'The Vulture and the Little Girl', which ended up winning the Pulitzer Prize, the same year Carter died. It has said the reception the photo got, as well as pre existing trauma caused the man to break. Tragic indeed, but if you do ever get to see the picture, it is profound indeed).
Through all the notes I have researched however, there is one that sticks out to me, it's the one below made by Kevin Carter, a South African Photographer that was so haunted by what he witnessed in Sudan in 1993, he ctbed by CO the next year.
This is what was in his note found next to him:
'I'm really, really sorry. The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist. …depressed … without phone … money for rent … money for child support … money for debts … money!!! … I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings & corpses & anger & pain … of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners … I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky.'
- From Kevin Carter's CTB Note.
That poor poor man. It's so simple what he said, but in a few lines you can how much a human soul can suffer through so much torture. Little but effective.
I wish mine could be like this, but sadly I have too much to say, because of what little I did. But gosh it's so painful, to read those who hurt so much in whatever time they had.
(Just an extra bit of information, Kevin Carter actually took a photograph during his time in Sudan, called 'The Vulture and the Little Girl', which ended up winning the Pulitzer Prize, the same year Carter died. It has said the reception the photo got, as well as pre existing trauma caused the man to break. Tragic indeed, but if you do ever get to see the picture, it is profound indeed).
