Taking a break from this website

[Malaria]

Hello everyone. I have decided that starting on Monday, I am going to take a sabbatical from this website. I am not in a very good headspace and my mental health is very unstable. I've been fighting the urge to ctb for the past two weeks, and they feel like they're getting stronger all the time. I am not thinking very clearly and I think if I use this website right now, I will feel worse. I might end up back in the psych ward again, and I don't want that. I'm a very sensitive person, which isn't something I'm proud of, I have very thin skin and I wish I could be stronger, but I'm not that strong. Everything makes me sensitive. Everything makes me cry. I'm going through such a rough time with my family as of late. They've done horrible and abusive things that I don't want to go into, but it's taking a toll on me. There are emotional scars I have that I think I'm going to need lots of therapy in order to heal from. Plus, I am still dealing with PTSD from being SA'd by my ex. And I've been self harming quite a bit.

Thank you to everyone that has been kind to me. I really appreciate it. I hope I don't ctb and I see you all again. If you want to contact me in other ways and stay in touch, don't hesitate to PM me. Bye for now.

 

[Circles]

It's always okay to take a break to care for your mental health. I wish you peace on your journey to heal. Please take care if you can.

 

[Dliena]

I wish you love and blissful peace you deserve in your ventures to wherever you decide to go.

 

[lament.]

If this website makes you feel worse you should definitley take a break, I hope all is well for you during your break and that the problems with your family are resolved. Best wishes.

 

[Pluto]

Same here. I took a couple of days off recently and it was the best thing ever. I started to be productive and feel like I wasn't throwing mountains of energy down a black hole. Not that I can stay away for too long, but nice to know I'm not alone on this.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you are going through such a bad patch. I think it's wise to be aware of your own mental state and to recognise when exterior things make it worse- including this forum. I hope things improve for you and wish you all the best.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Take care

 

[Mr.Tristesse]

Wishing you the best. You have a forever home here.

Same here. I took a couple of days off recently and it was the best thing ever. I started to be productive and feel like I wasn't throwing mountains of energy down a black hole. Not that I can stay away for too long, but nice to know I'm not alone on this.

That's why all of a sudden this place felt so....well, lots of adjectives could fit there.

 

[Meteora]

Hope to read you again once you feel more stable. Take good care of yourself .

 

[Zanmato]

Take your time, take care!
Wish you the best!

 

[Gl1tch3d G1rl]

I too am sensitive honestly, and seeing ppl suffer in here does get to me but I have found my ways of coping with it like taking shorter breaks from ss when neccecary and staying away from the threads that are the toughest for me. Going to the psych when ur sensitive is deffinitely pretty horrible (I talk from experience) so I rly hope you won't have to go. Do you see a therapist? Maybe you could discuss treatment options outside of hospitalization with them if you trust them enough? There's also plenty of research you could find online. I've heard there is a treatment for ptsd that has something to do with eye movements that is apparantly very efficient, don't remember what it's called unfortunately but maybe that could be something? Not trying to push therapy on you or anything, just thought I'd give you some suggestions since you sounded like you wanted help. No pressure though ofc, do whatever feels right for you ^_^

Please take care and I hope you get a good break <3

 

[disabledlife]

Above all, think about yourself, your well-being, you are free. If you're happy, or close to being happy, great. If you want to leave this site, that's your wish, if it makes you feel better. It is always very important to preserve your mental health, regardless of the concessions that need to be made.

In any case we will always be there to help you whatever you want if you come back (provided that this forum always remains open).

I wish you a good break and good continuation.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Take care and good luck! All the best!

 

[goodoldnoname923]

i know we don't know eachother personally heck i don't even believe we've ever interacted but i've seen you around the forum quite alot and i'd be more happy to stay in touch if you were open, otherwise i wish you well with your hiatus and hope your health improves just know we are all here for you it you choose or feel the need to return

 

[Malaria]

Do you see a therapist?

I do indeed see a therapist. Been seeing my current one since January.

 

[justcallmeJ]

good decision, take care of yourself <3

 

[Gl1tch3d G1rl]

I do indeed see a therapist. Been seeing my current one since January.

Ahh okay, I hope things works out with your therapist then. I wish you all the best luck :)

 

[rozeske]

You've made a good decision of putting your mental health first and doing what is best for you. I hope you keep doing that. Wish you only the best in your journey

 

[EternalShore]

See ya~!! Enjoy your time away! ^_^ Remember that you don't necessarily have to ever come back! This website helps some but also hurts some~ If you feel hurt by it, then it's good to stay away for the sake of feeling well~ Anyways, I wish you the best for the rest of your life and sincerely hope you feel better from all those awful things from before! ^_^

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Sending love and strength to you xx

 

[Otaku]

I enjoy your posts. I hope you take care of yourself

 

[Argo]

Sounds self aware and motivated by good intention, good for you. Taking breaks from anything habitual in general feels so useful, but some things are very hard to do that with.

 

[theboy]

good luck