sweet dreams SaSu (ctb today)

[littlecutecorpse]

hi again, happy sunday. today's the day i'm going to ctb via FSH. finally, after all this waiting...

it's currently 8:40, but once my family leaves for church i'm going to have my setup ready to ctb with. that'll be somewhere between 10:30-11:30 am. until then, i'm making myself comfy in my room; changed the lighting and got music playing. soon i'll have my last meal and finish wiping anything necessary off my phone.

family won't be back till 2-3 pm, so i'll have a few hours to myself; enough time to commit and not be found on time for rescue. in about an hour i'm also going to take 10-15 pills of keppra (aiming for the drowsiness side effects) to help reduce SI.

though it's not guaranteed i'll have that timeframe to myself. it's gonna take a little battle with my parents until they give up and leave me behind. even if i'm successful with that, chances are they might disconnect my service. so though i plan to keep y'all updated in the meantime, if i don't say another word after this thread, that means my service has been disconnected. if i don't respond by two weeks, then consider me gone and at peace.

and for educational purposes, i'd like to keep my account open (even if i succeed), although i understand if you have to take it down regardless

anyways, that's all from me for now....or ever. maybe someday we'll all be able to find the peace we've been looking for (and very much deserve)

with that being said, goodnight SaSu
and sweet dreams. ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

-littlecutecorpse ୨ৎ

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[kuroshimi]

You seemed very nice and sweet, despite the fact that I didn't talk much with you.

Anyway, safe travels. Wishing you peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

 

[amor.dor]

It seems you prepared very well, so I believe your departure will be peaceful. I wish you complete peace.

 

[failedmind]

good luck, i wish you peace

 

[EternallyCold]

I wish you all the best and hopefully everything goes well and you'll finally find some peace.

 

[BPDvic]

Wish you a peaceful departure

 

[shcizoseraphima]

good luck on your journey, i hope you find the peace you long for <3

 

[littlecutecorpse]

9:40 am update: just took the keppra. parents are wanting me to get dressed for church but obviously i'll have to back down and not change. still going to eat later on, probably right after they leave, then get my setup ready from there

 

[littlecutecorpse]

11:00 am update: family left. still at home, and surprisingly enough they let me stay home without any arguing...and i still have my wifi. probably the best case scenario i could've possibly imagined.

cleaned up my room now. still waiting for the keppra to kick in (only getting coordination issues and not drowsiness). might take some more if it still doesn't kick in by then. afterwards i'll have my small, final meal

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I admire your courage. I keep waking up to unbearable days and not doing it.

 

[dalemar]

11:00 am update: family left. still at home, and surprisingly enough they let me stay home without any arguing...and i still have my wifi. probably the best case scenario i could've possibly imagined.

cleaned up my room now. still waiting for the keppra to kick in (only getting coordination issues and not drowsiness). might take some more if it still doesn't kick in by then. afterwards i'll have my small, final meal

I hope you find the peace you deserve, I wish you all the best!

 

[SayaIsAwake]

I wish you a gentle passing on

 

[iamanavalanche]

i will miss you :( it has been good talking to you and getting to know you ♡ you are a kind and welcoming soul wishing you the best

 

[kouna]

Any news?

 

[littlecutecorpse]

Any news?

yup; just finished wiping off everything necessary off my phone (including removing all my social media) lubricated the rope and all. i feel nicely sedated from the keppra i took earlier now. set up is already inplace. all i need to do now is leave my note out real quick, lubricate my neck (just for good measure), and get the noose around my head so that i'll be good to go.

once i'm gone, i'll give one final goodbye before i find my peace. it's been really nice chatting with you all and hanging around in this forum while i was still waiting, but of course it's time for me to go now. i wish all of you the best. thank you <3

yup; just finished wiping off everything necessary off my phone (including removing all my social media) lubricated the rope and all. i feel nicely sedated from the keppra i took earlier now. set up is already inplace. all i need to do now is leave my note out real quick, lubricate my neck (just for good measure), and get the noose around my head so that i'll be good to go.

once i'm gone, i'll give one final goodbye before i find my peace. it's been really nice chatting with you all and hanging around in this forum while i was still waiting, but of course it's time for me to go now. i wish all of you the best. thank you <3

okay, got that done. now that that's over with, i'm gonna get up the ladder and wrap the noose around my neck now.

thank you guys for everything, i wouldn't have made it this far without y'all

farewell x

 

[dalemar]

okay, got that done. now that that's over with, i'm gonna get up the ladder and wrap the noose around my neck now.

thank you guys for everything, i wouldn't have made it this far without y'all

farewell x

Wishing you a peaceful passing.

 

[Hangman.]

I hope you find peace

 

[Carryline]

Find peace ...good luck

 

[NutOrat]

Sweet dreams, little corpsey... I'm so sorry it got to this point, I hope you find the peace you deserve. And if it doesn't happen, we'll always be happy to see you on here.
Good luck, I know your choice will be the right one. Sending you all the love!

 

[Exhausted546]

You're incredibly courageous, I ended up not doing it this morning, felt too lazy and too rushed.

I hope you find peace

 

[U. A.]

Fuck...
Goodbye

 

[kouna]

Goodbye

 

[jazzcat621]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for. Good luck, my heart goes out to you. <3

 

[seasonsdied]

Goodbye

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I wish you peace.

 

[fuzun]

Farewell. I hope you found peace.

 

[Al_stargate]

Breaks my heart, only 19. Wish things turned out better for you. Gonna miss you.