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ihateearth

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Apr 1, 2024
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" I almost died that night.
I'd made a plan
Thought I could escape exactly from who I am.

And I almost died
I almost. Almost died

But they came around me.
And they held me until I acquiesced to exist.

Not a question.
Responsibilities you have.
You can't leave.
If you feel stress, you must not dissipate.
You can't leave.

I am shackled.
Oh and can't bear my own soul.
I almost died and they felt
The anguish deep inside but fell numb

I almost died

Almost passed on those sleepless nights
And. The. Bottle makes, it makes, it makes me warm inside. I can't cry

It seems I'm trapped, I can't live my life.
Always trapped, can we get it right?
Cuz I almost died
But they wouldn't let me"



This song came out of me in anger at being forced to not go but tend to others' feelings and work. Multiple forced words and people who can't take it. They used shame duty and other things. I wish they left me alone.
 
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