Suffering for so long...

[Thisisme373]

Hi everyone I'm new here. I have suffered with severe depression, anxiety, stress for many years now. I also have tons of other life problems that are weighing me down so much, they are not all solvable.
Some of my issues are too personal to talk about but they are so bad that other people in my situation would of ended there life a long long time ago.
I attempted to end my life about 5 years ago when drunk, I cut my throat, I survived so now am depressed but also have a long nasty scar across my neck which has only made me more self conscious.
I have tried to plod on through life and stay strong but I'm so tired now and things just get worse and worse.
I have researched methods but as I'm in the UK it's difficult to find a method that is simple, best one I've found is the exit bag but even that is so complicated and now I'm hearing that they dilute the helium with air.
Can anybody suggest some methods? I won't be looking to doing it instantly but I want the comfort of having something ready for when the time comes.
I'd preferably like something like a "peaceful pill"
It's really sad I'm even writing all this but I'm just so incredibly down, I want an end to this cruel life I have endured, it's only seeming to be getting even more worse for me & I want out.

 

[DownInaHole]

I don't have any methods to suggest but I'm here if you want someone to talk to.

 

[Thisisme373]

I don't have any methods to suggest but I'm here if you want someone to talk to.

I can't PM yet as I'm new. I'll just say in here that I'm constantly miserable, I feel severely fatigued, I can't sleep, I'm unemployable as I've been out of work for 4 years due to being so severely depressed, I'm an anxious mess, I'm visibly scarred, I always look shattered, I feel so burnt out, I'm financially screwed, I'm an embarrassment to my family, I've got so many regrets that I can't let go of, I feel doomed.

 

[311]

I can't PM yet as I'm new. I'll just say in here that I'm constantly miserable, I feel severely fatigued, I can't sleep, I'm unemployable as I've been out of work for 4 years due to being so severely depressed, I'm an anxious mess, I'm visibly scarred, I always look shattered, I feel so burnt out, I'm financially screwed, I'm an embarrassment to my family, I've got so many regrets that I can't let go of, I feel doomed.

I feel you

 

[Psilo]

Yew tree leaves poisoning, apparently it is painless, you die by heart attack. That method gives me hope.

 

[DownInaHole]

We can talk here or you can email me at [email protected] I was in a hopeless situation also and I was able to get out of it. I will try to help you if you want some assistance.

 

[Thisisme373]

Yew tree leaves poisoning, apparently it is painless, you die by heart attack. That method gives me hope.

I'll look into this, are these leaves easy to obtain?

 

[Psilo]

I'll look into this, are these leaves easy to obtain?

The genus is Taxus Baccata, mostly used as an ornemental plant, very easy to indentify.

You'll need at least 50g. But you cant eat them whole, it will make you puke, believe me I tried hard. Best way is doing a tincture, theres a post for that.

 

[Thisisme373]

We can talk here or you can email me at [email protected] I was in a hopeless situation also and I was able to get out of it. I will try to help you if you want some assistance.

Unfortunately a few of my problems cannot be solved. Some of the other ones have slight possibilities but I have really dug myself into a big hole, things could get even worse in the coming months depending on certain things and if they do that's when I will be looking to exit.

 

[Thisisme373]

The genus is Taxus Baccata, mostly used as an ornemental plant, very easy to indentify.

You'll need at least 50g. But you cant eat them whole, it will make you puke, believe me I tried hard. Best way is doing a tincture, theres a post for that.

Would I be able to get these in Uk?
Wouldn't anti sickness pills stop the puking

 

[DownInaHole]

Maybe not solvable but you could also be missing solutions.

 

[Lanternlight]

Do you live with your family? Or alone?

 

[Psilo]

Would I be able to get these in Uk?
Wouldn't anti sickness pills stop the puking

UK ? Well you're probably in the best country for that for sure.

Anti sickness, yes, never tried tho, I stay natural. Death by nature.

 

[Thisisme373]

Maybe not solvable but you could also be missing solutions.

When will I be able to PM is it after so many posts?

 

[Thisisme373]

Do you live with your family? Or alone?

With my cousin and friend

 

[Thisisme373]

UK ? Well you're probably in the best country for that for sure.

Anti sickness, yes, never tried tho, I stay natural. Death by nature.

But if you vomit them up it's never gonna work?

 

[Psilo]

But if you vomit them up it's never gonna work?

No, thats the thing... I would probably not be here anymore.

 

[DownInaHole]

When will I be able to PM is it after so many posts?

I think you need a certain number of posts and/or been here a certain number of days.

 

[Sickman75]

I can't PM yet as I'm new. I'll just say in here that I'm constantly miserable, I feel severely fatigued, I can't sleep, I'm unemployable as I've been out of work for 4 years due to being so severely depressed, I'm an anxious mess, I'm visibly scarred, I always look shattered, I feel so burnt out, I'm financially screwed, I'm an embarrassment to my family, I've got so many regrets that I can't let go of, I feel doomed.

thats how i feel too. im sorry you are in that place

 

[Sickman75]

Would I be able to get these in Uk?
Wouldn't anti sickness pills stop the puking

have you considered the SN method?

 

[Thisisme373]

have you considered the SN method?

What's the SN method?

 

[Sickman75]

Some say it works https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/page-44#post-233461

I cant remember the user who experimented the doseage and it worked so he went to the ER
i havent seen him here since. hi s name is on the tip of my toungue. @Xerxes

 

[deflagrat]

Try this: https://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Suicide/Amitriptyline_cocktail

SN is easier to get but it may be somewhat painful until you are unconscious.

 

[Thisisme373]

Try this: https://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Suicide/Amitriptyline_cocktail

SN is easier to get but it may be somewhat painful until you are unconscious.

Thank you but from briefly reading that it sounds very complicated

 

[Final Escape]

Hi everyone I'm new here. I have suffered with severe depression, anxiety, stress for many years now. I also have tons of other life problems that are weighing me down so much, they are not all solvable.
Some of my issues are too personal to talk about but they are so bad that other people in my situation would of ended there life a long long time ago.
I attempted to end my life about 5 years ago when drunk, I cut my throat, I survived so now am depressed but also have a long nasty scar across my neck which has only made me more self conscious.
I have tried to plod on through life and stay strong but I'm so tired now and things just get worse and worse.
I have researched methods but as I'm in the UK it's difficult to find a method that is simple, best one I've found is the exit bag but even that is so complicated and now I'm hearing that they dilute the helium with air.
Can anybody suggest some methods? I won't be looking to doing it instantly but I want the comfort of having something ready for when the time comes.
I'd preferably like something like a "peaceful pill"
It's really sad I'm even writing all this but I'm just so incredibly down, I want an end to this cruel life I have endured, it's only seeming to be getting even more worse for me & I want out.

I think everyone here understands where you are at. Sorry u hurting so much :(

 

[Thisisme373]

Some say it works https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/page-44#post-233461

I cant remember the user who experimented the doseage and it worked so he went to the ER
i havent seen him here since. hi s name is on the tip of my toungue. @Xerxes

Just been reading some of that thread, it's hard to gather whether this method is mostly successful? I'm starting to see that most methods all have problems like obtaining certain drugs/ingredients/chemicals etc. Sucks.

 

[Sickman75]

Just been reading some of that thread, it's hard to gather whether this method is mostly successful? I'm starting to see that most methods all have problems like obtaining certain drugs/ingredients/chemicals etc. Sucks.

Well if suicide was easy our population would be thinned out much more than what it is now.
This seems rather simple, not too complicated. Just a few steps to take for vomit prevention. I heard you fall asleep. I don't think I've read it's painful, but I could be wrong.

 

[crova]

Would I be able to get these in Uk?
Wouldn't anti sickness pills stop the puking

If you are in UK you will find yew trees near old churches, graveyards, monastery ruins.
Winter is the right time to harvest the needles/leaves.

Look for a 'trees map' of your area; like this one:
https://www.parks.ox.ac.uk/trees-of-the-parks
I just found a yew tree in Pavilion Border, Oxford.

 

[Thisisme373]

Really glad to have found these forums, has actually made me feel more content in a way, knowing there are possible ways out if things don't improve or get worse (which is what I'm fearing) and everyone on here has been helpful and welcoming so far. At least I know I'm not alone in feeling this way. I'd like to get a method in place ready at home, would be kind of comforting.

 

[Partial-Elf]

Partial suspension hanging is underrated. Fast and peaceful and simple. It's my method of choice and I've practiced a lot