Story Stress Sypmtoms went away after deciding to ctb

[Suizid]

So 5 years ago i have started to experience a twtching of my eye lid. For the last 2 years it was nonstop twitching all day. I Look in the mirror and i see it twiching like crazy. It Made me extremely depressed. Last month i have decided that i dont care to live anymore and i planed my way out. Since then the twitching just went away lol. But its too late now, i have already bought almost everything to ctb with and ive Made peace with my life.

Has anyone else experienced something Similar or suffers from Psycholosomatic Stress too?

 

[Wrath]

I always felt really heavy. I feel lighter having my method and my final box of clothes right by my desk. It's really like I can just call it quits anytime I want. This is the greatest gift I've ever gotten imo. The ability to just decide to stop everything anytime, exactly the way I choose. It's like I have power over my own life at last. Doing things on my own doesn't give me that feeling, having a job didn't make me feel like that, and going on a powertrip in a videogame also didn't make me feel like that.

I guess it's cliche, but it got a little easier to live knowing that I finally have a plan about something for once.