YukiFox
Pastel demon
- Dec 8, 2018
- 320
Since I'm 12 I saw an spiritual entity came into my room. She come with a green light out of the window and since that age stayed with me. She later revealed that she's my spirit guide.
The psychologist told that doesn`t believe that my spirit guide came on spirit form or physical. The psychologist, when I was 14, thinks that I'm only made an imaginary friend to feel me less alone and alo for "Masturbation fantasy". (No, I don 't have any spiritual sex with the entity), since I described her as beautiful. Well, the point is she still on my mind. She told me that her primary task it's convince me to stay on "this world", that means not to die prematurely for drugs, crime-related murder or suicide. When I talk to her about my suicidal thoughts she tell me that on the outerworld there's no punishment to suicidal people, but I could mess up some improvements on reincarnations or enlightenment if I do it.
Look, I'm a spiritual person. Since I embrace the paganism and witchcraft as my path I feel more comfortable since then, ran out off Christianity (SDA Church respectively), and I trust her. But she as spirit guide isn't the reason that discourages me to kill myself. But it's funny because some psychriatist could tell me that she doesn't exist and if I "feel" her I'm deluded or something, then prescribe me some drugs. But I don't want to tell the common people something that I feel or live on an another level.
On personal rituals she meditate with me and stay with me. She's kinda sardonic with my attitudes and despair, and when I chat with her about suicide she raised the arms and tell me "ÂŞWhatever man". Some other details I keep to me,.
I want to know if someone has experienced with their Spirit guides, or have an imaginary friend still as an adult, or feels like an angel protects to not search their own deaths. Sure, some psychiatry puritanist tell me that's all bullshit or an delusion, but I want to believe, period. She's one of the reasons that I'm into the high fantasy and related stuffs, and perhaps I asked her to reincarnate into a fairy.
The psychologist told that doesn`t believe that my spirit guide came on spirit form or physical. The psychologist, when I was 14, thinks that I'm only made an imaginary friend to feel me less alone and alo for "Masturbation fantasy". (No, I don 't have any spiritual sex with the entity), since I described her as beautiful. Well, the point is she still on my mind. She told me that her primary task it's convince me to stay on "this world", that means not to die prematurely for drugs, crime-related murder or suicide. When I talk to her about my suicidal thoughts she tell me that on the outerworld there's no punishment to suicidal people, but I could mess up some improvements on reincarnations or enlightenment if I do it.
Look, I'm a spiritual person. Since I embrace the paganism and witchcraft as my path I feel more comfortable since then, ran out off Christianity (SDA Church respectively), and I trust her. But she as spirit guide isn't the reason that discourages me to kill myself. But it's funny because some psychriatist could tell me that she doesn't exist and if I "feel" her I'm deluded or something, then prescribe me some drugs. But I don't want to tell the common people something that I feel or live on an another level.
On personal rituals she meditate with me and stay with me. She's kinda sardonic with my attitudes and despair, and when I chat with her about suicide she raised the arms and tell me "ÂŞWhatever man". Some other details I keep to me,.
I want to know if someone has experienced with their Spirit guides, or have an imaginary friend still as an adult, or feels like an angel protects to not search their own deaths. Sure, some psychiatry puritanist tell me that's all bullshit or an delusion, but I want to believe, period. She's one of the reasons that I'm into the high fantasy and related stuffs, and perhaps I asked her to reincarnate into a fairy.
