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N3UR0T1C

N3UR0T1C

CTB Today
Jul 13, 2019
89
Well, it's come to this point. I originally landed here in 2019, and attempted to CTB. I failed, and gave recovery a chance instead. It didn't work.

Tonight at around 7:00pm, I'll be taking 35g of SN. My protocol is below:

Fast for 13 hours

6:00pm (EST) - Take 30g Metocloperamide
6:00pm (EST) - Take 4mg of Bromazolam
6:20pm (EST) - Take 2000mg Calcium Carbonate (antiacid)
6:40pm (EST) - Take 10mg of Bromazolam
6:40pm (EST) - Take 35g of Sodium Nitrite dissolved in 75ml of water.

I deeply appreciate the time I've spent on the forum, and all the wonderful users that I've met here. I hope everybody finds their peace, either through recovery or death.

I'm okay with answering questions, although I likely won't be doing a "play by play" on symptoms as I would like to lay back, listen to some music, and drift off.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,772
Safe travels and good luck. I hope you find peace.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,055
Farewell. I wish you the best. I hope you find your peace.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,142
im sorry it has come to this, I hope you find peace
 
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LifeQuitter

Experienced
Jul 11, 2024
263
✌️
 
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justwannadip

justwannadip

it's still raining
May 27, 2024
292
Well, it's come to this point. I originally landed here in 2019, and attempted to CTB. I failed, and gave recovery a chance instead. It didn't work.

Tonight at around 7:00pm, I'll be taking 35g of SN. My protocol is below:

Fast for 13 hours

6:00pm (EST) - Take 30g Metocloperamide
6:00pm (EST) - Take 4mg of Bromazolam
6:20pm (EST) - Take 2000mg Calcium Carbonate (antiacid)
6:40pm (EST) - Take 10mg of Bromazolam
6:40pm (EST) - Take 35g of Sodium Nitrite dissolved in 75ml of water.

I deeply appreciate the time I've spent on the forum, and all the wonderful users that I've met here. I hope everybody finds their peace, either through recovery or death.

I'm okay with answering questions, although I likely won't be doing a "play by play" on symptoms as I would like to lay back, listen to some music, and drift off.
I'm sorry to see you go. I hope you find the peace you deserve.
 
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Traveller12724

Experienced
May 14, 2024
264
Safe travels my friend, best of luck to you! See you on the other side, I will be there soon as well!
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,927
May peace find you at the end of your journey.
 
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N3UR0T1C

N3UR0T1C

CTB Today
Jul 13, 2019
89
Thanks everybody for the encouragement and support!
 
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Chrono99

suffering soul
Aug 2, 2021
3
I hope you find the peace you are looking for, good luck on your journey.
 
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1043169

1043169

I put the HOT in psychotic
Jul 9, 2024
97
Ah man, I hardly know you but I'll miss you. We chatted a little bit in the chat room.

I wish you peace and a safe journey.
 
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Mebius

Mebius

Student
Jun 13, 2024
183
sad
 
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randal_bond

Me encantaria practicar ES con Hispanohablantes.
Oct 23, 2018
288
Peace, man. I hope it will be quick.
 
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DrearyAsh348

DrearyAsh348

Member
May 8, 2023
52
I am really going to miss you. We chatted very briefly, but I will always remember seeing you around on this forum. Take care and I hope nothing but the best for you. :heart:
 
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dopaminedeath

Death please
Nov 12, 2022
171
is it time soon?

Farewell
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,447
Rest in peace.
 
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cryptoinvestor

Student
Jul 12, 2024
173
Rest easy friend!
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
623
I hope you find the peace you are looking for
 
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indefinitesleep

indefinitesleep

It is what it is
Jun 29, 2024
134
wish you the best brother ❤️
 
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rainwillneverstop

rainwillneverstop

Global Mod | Serious Health Hazard
Jul 12, 2022
611
Remember if you change your mind, we are here as much as we were before.
Your presence has been and is appreciated.

I hope it goes well 🫂
 
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dtkdave87

Member
Jul 13, 2024
27
Safe travels 🙏
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Peace
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Illuminated
Feb 13, 2020
3,234
A little candle burns for you, may it guide your soul to love and peace.
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
179
Have you gone?
Rest well.
 
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thebelljarrr

thebelljarrr

.
Apr 26, 2024
116
🌹🤍
 
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Hahem

Knows too much
Feb 4, 2023
94
Farewell
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod
Jun 2, 2024
2,068
Peace to you<3
 
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Timothy7dff

Timothy7dff

Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
657
Right behind you. Maybe there's a place on the other side we can all meet up.
 
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Minsu

Minsu

♀️🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
548
Peace. Are you still with us?
 
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