batmanreal
nobody gaf
- Sep 9, 2025
- 41
i just want a certain death, but i'm so tired of waiting. i've failed with sn before, but i only failed because i was a very impulsive/desperate dumbass and i fumbled on just about step and aspect of the attempt. i'm still upset i didn't die, but there's no point in getting into that whole situation now.
i know why i failed, i know what went wrong, i know that shitty attempt doesn't say anything about the method as a whole, but the method feels jarring to me now. plus, attempting would still be a little bit risky in my current situation.
i can most likely get a gun in a few months—pretty much a certain death, obviously. i don't know if i should wait, though. i really can't fail another attempt, but i'm so tired of waiting.
each day, i just get worse and worse. i'm so exhausted and i just want everything to stop. i can't do this anymore.
i know why i failed, i know what went wrong, i know that shitty attempt doesn't say anything about the method as a whole, but the method feels jarring to me now. plus, attempting would still be a little bit risky in my current situation.
i can most likely get a gun in a few months—pretty much a certain death, obviously. i don't know if i should wait, though. i really can't fail another attempt, but i'm so tired of waiting.
each day, i just get worse and worse. i'm so exhausted and i just want everything to stop. i can't do this anymore.
