Sn, but doubts

[aalmoa001]

Has anyone had doubts about sn? Or ctb in general?

I've spent the last few months desperate to get ahold of my sn, and now i have it, my antiemetic (only cyclizine), zopiclone. Etc etc

And now the thought of taking it just scares me. Like I don't want to get rid of it, but what if I'm found and brain damaged?
Also part of me is still very scared that the police will turn up at my door to welfare check even tho it's been weeks and they haven't

 

[Sergeant45]

My only doubt was trying to even acquire it, I live in a country where I will realistically never be able to hold it through legal means, so I've given up on getting SN myself.

If you've acquired all of those tools by legal means the chance that you'll randomly have the police at your door is extremely low...

SN damage is very reversible if you somehow are found. (I recommend the various info threads on it, trust me, I'm a total chemistry noob and even I understood it all). But if one does it right you'd be found when you've long found your peace.


Take care, don't stress it.

 

[aalmoa001]

I'm in the uk and I had them at my door when I tried purchasing from DMC. Even though it's technically a 'legal' substance, owning it without a proper licence is illegal
I'm a medical student and the effects of long term hypoxia would mean permanent brain damage if not reversed quick enough. I don't want to end up disabled if it goes tits up

 

[UserFromNowhere]

I understand. I received my SN a while back, but I simply can't bring myself to take it. Honestly, I wouldn't mind going out through partial hanging, or something like that, but the SN is just something I can't bring myself to do. And I don't understand why. Perhaps because I view it as an "end all be all" sort of thing, a complete cessation of life. Like, there's nothing beyond it. I just don't see other methods with the same weight, I suppose.

 

[wyo777]

I understand. I received my SN a while back, but I simply can't bring myself to take it. Honestly, I wouldn't mind going out through partial hanging, or something like that, but the SN is just something I can't bring myself to do. And I don't understand why. Perhaps because I view it as an "end all be all" sort of thing, a complete cessation of life. Like, there's nothing beyond it. I just don't see other methods with the same weight, I suppose.

For me the difficult part is after drink it. I saw a movie from RIP SP and it did not look as a peaceful at all. Time betwen it is too long for me. I know i would start panicking even with benzos. All the side effects, blue hands etc....for me it is no, but everyone is different. I think is a good way for someone who totally give up. For person who is still fighting and strugling that is not a good option.

 

[intothec]

For me the difficult part is after drink it. I saw a movie from RIP SP and it did not look as a peaceful at all. Time betwen it is too long for me. I know i would start panicking even with benzos. All the side effects, blue hands etc....for me it is no, but everyone is different. I think is a good way for someone who totally give up. For person who is still fighting and strugling that is not a good option.

Rip sp??

 

[wyo777]

Strawberrypain if i remember correctly. I have never seen something that is still so deep in my memory. Her eyes was full of life but also full of determination.

 

[aalmoa001]

Strawberrypain if i remember correctly. I have never seen something that is still so deep in my memory. Her eyes was full of life but also full of determination.

Sorry was it a film about someone taking sn ?

 

[wyo777]

Sorry was it a film about someone taking sn ?

Yes, she was sitting in front of the laptop with webcam on videochat with her boyfriend. He recorded it and putted online. He CTB next week if i remember correctly. This movie is not available here due to site policy. Not even sure is it available anywhete anymore. Point is that it was not peaceful.

 

[LostLily]

So jealous you actually found a source after getting that welfare check. I'm still looking.... but no luck

 

[aalmoa001]

Yes, she was sitting in front of the laptop with webcam on videochat with her boyfriend. He recorded it and putted online. He CTB next week if i remember correctly. This movie is not available here due to site policy. Not even sure is it available anywhete anymore. Point is that it was not peaceful.

I think I remember watching one of a guy- it was linked on here and all the comments were about how peaceful it looked but honestly it was grim.

 

[wyo777]

Ahh, sorry guys, my memory is not such good as before. Her nick was StrawberryPanic and this post with video is still on this site. Sad to watch, at least for me it was very difficult.

 

[intothec]

I think I remember watching one of a guy- it was linked on here and all the comments were about how peaceful it looked but honestly it was grim.

I've seen 2 and neither seemed awful .
What is film by RIP SP? The girl on video call? She's just chatting then goes to bed right

 

[wyo777]

I've seen 2 and neither seemed awful .
What is film by RIP SP? The girl on video call? She's just chatting then goes to bed right

StrawberryPanic, well if for You she was just chatting and went to sleep then i think you should watch it one more time. She was struggling with nause, spasms from pain etc. Also their is no voice so we do not know what she was saying, at 40 minute appareanty she was knocked down, but her body was still in spasms, so im not so sure about it.

 

[aalmoa001]

StrawberryPanic, well if for You she was just chatting and went to sleep then i think you should watch it one more time. She was struggling with nause, spasms from pain etc. Also their is no voice so we do not know what she was saying, at 40 minute appareanty she was knocked down, but her body was still in spasms, so im not so sure about it.

I just watched it- she was conscious for a long longer than I expected
Idk if I saw a cut video but she didn't seem in pain- looked kinda spaced out. Although at one point it looked like she might be seizing
Idk man I just need to know for sure that it'll finish me off and I don't really want to be awake for 40 mins after taking it - all the other threads said it would only take like 10 mins
I would literally do it rn if it was a guaranteed painless death

So jealous you actually found a source after getting that welfare check. I'm still looking.... but no luck

Don't lose hope x
The clues are all on the threads

 

[wyo777]

I just watched it- she was conscious for a long longer than I expected
Idk if I saw a cut video but she didn't seem in pain- looked kinda spaced out. Although at one point it looked like she might be seizing
Idk man I just need to know for sure that it'll finish me off and I don't really want to be awake for 40 mins after taking it - all the other threads said it would only take like 10 mins

There is couple movies, longest one is 20 minutes but there is also 7 min when you can see the last moments. If you will pit attention to the details you will see it was not so peaceful as many people state. Also please be aware that a lot of people who are stating that they took it and they survived and it was all good are mentaly sick. This case is proofed, media was talking about it etc. It is not a fake video. Everyone can find it as it wants but in my opinion is not peaceful. Everything is in details and in her eyes. About time it depends, she was young and strong, this could be the reason why it took longer, but i've heard about case where it tooked 1.5 hour. It all depends from your body. If you will watch movie where lion eats zebra alive it also does not look very painful. But it is not how it looks. SN was also my first choice, but now i'm against it. It is just not for me, maybe for someone totally calm.

 

[aalmoa001]

There is couple movies, longest one is 20 minutes but there is also 7 min when you can see the last moments. If you will pit attention to the details you will see it was not so peaceful as many people state. Also please be aware that a lot of people who are stating that they took it and they survived and it was all good are mentaly sick. This case is proofed, media was talking about it etc. It is not a fake video. Everyone can find it as it wants but in my opinion is not peaceful. Everything is in details and in her eyes. About time it depends, she was young and strong, this could be the reason why it took longer, but i've heard about case where it tooked 1.5 hour. It all depends from your body. If you will watch movie where lion eats zebra alive it also does not look very painful. But it is not how it looks. SN was also my first choice, but now i'm against it. It is just not for me, maybe for someone totally calm.

Yeah igy
I guess there is never a perfect way though, even hanging/ partial hanging can go wrong

 

[wyo777]

Yeah igy
I guess there is never a perfect way though, even hanging/ partial hanging can go wrong

That is true, even N can go wrong

 

[aalmoa001]

That is true, even N can go wrong

What's n? Nitrous?
Yeah- at this point anything that restricts oxygen intake as the mechanism of ctb is a sure fire way of mentally disabling yourself if it doesn't work

 

[wyo777]

What's n? Nitrous?
Yeah- at this point anything that restricts oxygen intake as the mechanism of ctb is a sure fire way of mentally disabling yourself if it doesn't work

N is a shortcut from Nembutal. Holy Grail.

 

[aalmoa001]

Oh really? Hadn't heard of that

N is a shortcut from Nembutal. Holy Grail.

does it work in a similar way to sn?
Oh wait is it the same as phenobarbital?
No word of a lie, one quick google showed me several sites that would discreetly sell you phenobarbital - and yet it's sn that the authorities are worried about

 

[wyo777]

Oh really? Hadn't heard of that

does it work in a similar way to sn?

No, it is pentobarbital sodium. In Netherland and Swiss it has been used as an assisted suicide method. Vets are using it for animal euthanasia. It is only oeaceful, painless way to end a life. It takes around one minute to knock you down. Details are in PPH book. It is extremely hard to purchase it as it is extremely high controlled substance. I had it and i have changed my mind, but i don't want to go into details. Done it many times here. Only way to find it is Peru or Mexico and only with proper contacts. It was easier couple years ago when you could just buy it in agrovet in Peru, but because of a lot CTB there now it is highly controlled.

 

[aalmoa001]

No, it is pentobarbital sodium. In Netherland and Swiss it has been used as an assisted suicide method. Vets are using it for animal euthanasia. It is only oeaceful, painless way to end a life. It takes around one minute to knock you down. Details are in PPH book. It is extremely hard to purchase it as it is extremely high controlled substance. I had it and i have changed my mind, but i don't want to go into details. Done it many times here. Only way to find it is Peru or Mexico and only with proper contacts. It was easier couple years ago when you could just buy it in agrovet in Peru, but because of a lot CTB there now it is highly controlled.

I just used a vpn and found a few sites - obvs they all look shady af

 

[wyo777]

I just used a vpn and found a few sites - obvs they all look shady af

It is all scam. Do not go that way.