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ephemeralme

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Jun 16, 2024
26
My second order attempt and it's arrived today. I am so relieved!! I tried ordering about half a year ago and payment didn't go through then. I got nervous so I didn't follow up and try the other methods as I dont like attaching my bank account to unfamiliar services. A few months ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD and started meds. My anxiety improved, and for a brief while so did my depression. But adjusting to meds has been rough (brain drugs are not fun). The past few weeks have been especially difficult. My depression is back, though my anxiety is still not as bad as it used to be. Guessing the ADHD was the primary reason my anxiety got so bad I was prescribed beta blockers. The ADHD diagnosis explained a lot about how i ended up where I am today. I'm still processing it and trying to adjust to new meds. It's been rough as I think I might be sensitive to meds (I rarely take any meds, even for headaches or allergies). I have been spiralling again the past few weeks and wanted to have an out in case it got too much again. I was able to order again and today, my package finally arrived. I am so relieved. I am trying to fight the urge to ctb but it's been so difficult. I can't remember when I last felt or thought that life is worth living. It's been decades. But now I finally have this so I feel like I have a way out. I am incredibly relieved knowing I have a way out of this chronic suffering. I don't have anyone I can share this with, so posting here as I know at least here I won't be criticized and will find support and compassion. Thank you all, truly.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand why you'd feel so relieved to have the option, I wish you the best.
 
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Confusedsoul12345

Member
Jan 29, 2025
66
Even I have received SN last week but I am not feeling any relief as I don't have any supplementary medicines.For AE I am trying to get it and will probably get it in few months but I don't see any way I can get benzo.

I am scared reading about SN being painful method in last few days on this forum but I still went ahead ordered it as I think with changing political environment it will even harder in future to obtain SN.
 
pastmyexpiration

pastmyexpiration

Member
Mar 10, 2025
9
Yes mine arrived today too only took 5 days in the USA from the USA there are sources if you know where to look.
 
Dawns

Dawns

Student
Apr 5, 2023
110
Yes mine arrived today too only took 5 days in the USA from the USA there are sources if you know where to look.
wow never heard of US source anytime recently that aren't only sold to businesses/schools! i'll have to look around
 
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DivineGirl

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Jul 25, 2024
5
Anyone know a reliable source to buy SN?
 
Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
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Reliable source in the US? Please DM.
 
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user_2249

Member
Mar 29, 2025
37
My second order attempt and it's arrived today. I am so relieved!! I tried ordering about half a year ago and payment didn't go through then. I got nervous so I didn't follow up and try the other methods as I dont like attaching my bank account to unfamiliar services. A few months ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD and started meds. My anxiety improved, and for a brief while so did my depression. But adjusting to meds has been rough (brain drugs are not fun). The past few weeks have been especially difficult. My depression is back, though my anxiety is still not as bad as it used to be. Guessing the ADHD was the primary reason my anxiety got so bad I was prescribed beta blockers. The ADHD diagnosis explained a lot about how i ended up where I am today. I'm still processing it and trying to adjust to new meds. It's been rough as I think I might be sensitive to meds (I rarely take any meds, even for headaches or allergies). I have been spiralling again the past few weeks and wanted to have an out in case it got too much again. I was able to order again and today, my package finally arrived. I am so relieved. I am trying to fight the urge to ctb but it's been so difficult. I can't remember when I last felt or thought that life is worth living. It's been decades. But now I finally have this so I feel like I have a way out. I am incredibly relieved knowing I have a way out of this chronic suffering. I don't have anyone I can share this with, so posting here as I know at least here I won't be criticized and will find support and compassion. Thank you all, truly.
Where from. Pls help I'm UK and struggling to source
 
Big_Eal

Big_Eal

Member
Mar 31, 2025
75
Even I have received SN last week but I am not feeling any relief as I don't have any supplementary medicines.For AE I am trying to get it and will probably get it in few months but I don't see any way I can get benzo.

I am scared reading about SN being painful method in last few days on this forum but I still went ahead ordered it as I think with changing political environment it will even harder in future to obtain SN.
im also struggling to find benzos ,but if the pain is the price to pay ill do it
 

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