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[bnkshawty]

ive been oversexualized by others and myself since a very young age ive "Developed" hips and gained attraction from boys and grown ahh men this alone isnt what fuckedf me up sm in life it was also the religion and culture i came from that raised me to feel ashamed of myself when i want to enhance my attraction not cz its a sin but rather cz men cant be controlled. ive dealt with male harrassment sm my entire life especially in the country im in rn for "vacation" i went to a kids amusment park and a worker grabbed my tits while Fastening my seatbelt for me and the void in me dug so much deeper. ive gotten so fucked in my brain to the point now when i do my makeup and hair and try to get cute i feel like a fucking ugly ogre even when my surroundings call me attractive i feel disgusting i js want to cut myself and rot in my bed idk whats wrong w me that has led me to this point i have no identity im not real ts im js rambling thots rn i dont rlly have no one to talk 2 about these thots js deadass going crazy ts. i dont feel attractive i feel like a pig. i hate harassments from grown men and my family basically calling me a hoe i rmemeber one time i discussed tis topic w my dad and mom how in the place im at rn men bother me on the streets my dad had said "its like how flies are attracted to trash" which i couldnt even forget ever is that what i am fr js shit lamolmaolmaolmao i feel so overstimulated rn i think i hate being percieved i js want to be a angel far away from the earth and not be percieved js enjoying my own pure existence
oh and i got back w my ex lmao #thirdtimesacharm

 

[loser4ever4life]

I'm so sorry that's happening to you, that's really disgusting behaviour from all these men and I'm sorry your parents aren't taking your back on this issue. I'm a man and I'm not sure if I'm the best equipped to give you advice but know that this isn't your fault and I hope you get some help, im not sure what country you're in but I hope you find the resources necessary.

 

[AllWentWrong]

I've found that people bother you when you are attractive and look vulnerable.

However, you can be invisible to them too. Fat people, ugly people, and sick people are always treated like they are invisible. Play around with makeup to look sickly, wear clothes that don't fit right. Read up a little on how to look butch. (Binders specifically)Hetero men won't bother you if they think you are a boy.
If you're out in the street put on a performance. They don't have to know the real you.

Save your looking cute time when you are around people you trust. Have a disguise for other times. I'm writing all this because Ive seen people put on this chameleon act and it shocked me.