she's leaving me

[nzdarkshark]

I told her what i'm going to do this summer.
She said she couldn't handle it - I accepted that.
She's leaving me.
If I survive we'll get back together.
But for now it's over.

I've never felt so alone.​

 

[Schopenhauer]

Yeah, people can't accept it. Or deal with it. Even when they do love us. I realized this today as well.

I tested the waters with my ex, implied that I was planning to do it soon. She freaked out, started telling not to do it, to seek help. I backed down, told her I was only disturbed, but I'm not going to do anything. First time I have lied to her... But I always knew that I'd have to die alone. Still makes me very sad, though....

I only wanted understanding. Just a hand on my shoulder would be great. Being told to seek help sucks.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I can relate to both of u! Hugs and

 

[Dead_Inside]

Damn .... so sorry. Not much I can say. Just sorry that is what is happening. : (

 

[nzdarkshark]

Damn .... so sorry. Not much I can say. Just sorry that is what is happening. : (

It's fine...I told her if it needed to be done..to do it.
If I can save her from going down with me - then I can accept it.

 

[HopelessKim]

Sometimes I don't quite understand it when people say to seek help- especially when after much consideration the person actually wants to die. I understand that if a person doesn't really want to die but is distressed about the constant suicidal thoughts then counseling or something might help.. maybe that's the mental state that most people assume a 'suicidal person' is in?

 

[nzdarkshark]

Sometimes I don't quite understand it when people say to seek help- especially when after much consideration the person actually wants to die. I understand that if a person doesn't really want to die but is distressed about the constant suicidal thoughts then counseling or something might help.. maybe that's the mental state that most people assume a 'suicidal person' is in?

Possibly. She didn't specifically tell me to get help. She simply said that if I survive we can get back together.
But I don't plan on surviving...so maybe things are better this way..

 

[Dead_Inside]

It's fine...I told her if it needed to be done..to do it.
If I can save her from going down with me - then I can accept it.

I understand that. I want the same ...but they don't want that.
Not that I wouldn't feel really sad if they did decide my BS was too much. I know it is. But I am just a sad piece of shit.

 

[scales]

I'm sorry, that sounds very difficult. This would be the time you most need support and aren't getting it.

 

[nzdarkshark]

I'm sorry, that sounds very difficult. This would be the time you most need support and aren't getting it.

I don't blame her for leaving though - I'm proud of her for leaving me before I hurt her.

 

[AndyCurious]

I told her what i'm going to do this summer.
She said she couldn't handle it - I accepted that.
She's leaving me.
If I survive we'll get back together.
But for now it's over.

I've never felt so alone.​

I really do feel for you there.. Hugs <3

 

[stellabelle]

I told her what i'm going to do this summer.
She said she couldn't handle it - I accepted that.
She's leaving me.
If I survive we'll get back together.
But for now it's over.

I've never felt so alone.​

Summarizes my current situation.
There's no hope of reconciliation though.