betterinthedark
Member
- Jan 6, 2026
- 18
I recently relapsed after an argue with my boyfriend. I did not do it to make him feel guilty or harm him, I have multiple disorders, BPD especially that caused me to be really impulsive and send me into huge panics. I relapsed out of an impulse. The next day he had cuts on his arm, I let it go, but I confronted him later and he said "I did it so we're even. " I asked him to stop cutting and he said I have to first. I've delt with self harm addiction since I was 9 years old. It's been over a decade. It's not that easy for me to stop and he should know that better than anyone else. It feels so immature and I'm unsure how to progress our relationship now. I can't believe he would do something so petty when I'm struggling, when he struggled I didn't harm myself, I actually stayed clean for him. I Baker acted him when he overdosed. Told him I'd do anything to help him. Don't understand why I'm being met with this response.
