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intheenditdsntmatr

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Jan 9, 2025
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Does anyone else feel like now they've started prepping to ctb you can't go back no matter how you feel
 
FindingVeritas

FindingVeritas

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Jan 1, 2025
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I feel this, I can't turn back time to change what happened and i dont think theres anything i can do to improve my situation in a meaningful way. Plus, I'd feel like an idiot if I were to have posted a bunch in here and rehearsed hanging myself to just... not do it. The last time I had this degree of conviction, the only reason I survived was because my mother heard me having a seizure from the overdose and the paramedics revived me in the ambulance (I was furious when I came to)
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Yep, I can't go back. For me, the only way to go is forward into the bus. There is nowhere else for me to go now
 
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intheenditdsntmatr

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Jan 9, 2025
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Yep, I can't go back. For me, the only way to go is forward into the bus. There is nowhere else for me to go now
Can I ask if it's not too intrusive how long have you been wanting to catch the bus
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
Can I ask if it's not too intrusive how long have you been wanting to catch the bus
I've been wanting to ctb for a few years now. I had the desire to be dead even during my childhood but it was just passive suicidal ideation until earlier this month where I now have some sort of a plan to escape this shitty existence
 

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