Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
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my friend needs me and my other friend + my brothers bdays are coming up so serious attempts are unoptionally put on hold, might as well work on recovery.
disclaimer: i do not want to hear that medication only makes things worse/doesnt help or any other negative comments towards it. i will report it and have the comment removed. also for those giving me valuable information please read through everything not just the title, i dont want to have to repeat myself.
does anyone know anything about the title? have you experienced it? know anyone that did? below ill share what i do know.
im asking because for those of you that havent read these are my options:
1) stay on buspirone, upping the does from 5mg x2 / daily to 7.5mg x2 / daily. hopefully to help with anxiety its currently not helping with anxiety however it is keeping voices away. this option however does not help with my depression and will most likely still lead to my suicide.
2) go off the buspirone and change it out for 5mg citalopram, most likely making the voices come back and again, most likely leading to my suicide because i literally cant stand them. i know abuse is wrong but they can stay locked in their room and not come out (for those that dont understand the reference the voices are still there i just dont have to listen to them. they are basically in another room just handing me notes which is a million times better then listening to them argue)
3) stay on the buspirone (not messing with the dose) and add 5mg citalopram which risks serotonin syndrome and possible death.
right now im looking into option 3 as that is what i would prefer however recovery just to die seems a bit backwards and id prefer to avoid that. i would also like to add that i seem to be (my psychiatrist even stating) that i am sensitive to medication, so whatever might happen to most, i have to plan for it to happen and question if im really willing to risk that. if my understanding is right, i think im willing to risk it.
this is what i know:
www.mayoclinic.org
www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
from my understanding you dont just 'wake up' dead one morning. its not sudden, there are warning signs. this is the one thing that is making me say risk it. stop it if anything weird happens. so advice/stories much appreciated.
disclaimer: i do not want to hear that medication only makes things worse/doesnt help or any other negative comments towards it. i will report it and have the comment removed. also for those giving me valuable information please read through everything not just the title, i dont want to have to repeat myself.
does anyone know anything about the title? have you experienced it? know anyone that did? below ill share what i do know.
im asking because for those of you that havent read these are my options:
1) stay on buspirone, upping the does from 5mg x2 / daily to 7.5mg x2 / daily. hopefully to help with anxiety its currently not helping with anxiety however it is keeping voices away. this option however does not help with my depression and will most likely still lead to my suicide.
2) go off the buspirone and change it out for 5mg citalopram, most likely making the voices come back and again, most likely leading to my suicide because i literally cant stand them. i know abuse is wrong but they can stay locked in their room and not come out (for those that dont understand the reference the voices are still there i just dont have to listen to them. they are basically in another room just handing me notes which is a million times better then listening to them argue)
3) stay on the buspirone (not messing with the dose) and add 5mg citalopram which risks serotonin syndrome and possible death.
right now im looking into option 3 as that is what i would prefer however recovery just to die seems a bit backwards and id prefer to avoid that. i would also like to add that i seem to be (my psychiatrist even stating) that i am sensitive to medication, so whatever might happen to most, i have to plan for it to happen and question if im really willing to risk that. if my understanding is right, i think im willing to risk it.
this is what i know:
Serotonin syndrome-Serotonin syndrome - Symptoms & causes - Mayo Clinic
Learn how certain drug interactions or an increase in the dose of certain drugs can cause serotonin levels to rise to potentially dangerous levels.
www.mayoclinic.org
Mild serotonin syndrome: A report of 12 cases
Serotonin syndrome (SS) is an under diagnosed and under reported condition. Mild SS is easily overlooked by physicians. Every patient with mild SS is a potential candidate for developing life-threatening severe SS because of inadvertent overdose or the ...
www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
from my understanding you dont just 'wake up' dead one morning. its not sudden, there are warning signs. this is the one thing that is making me say risk it. stop it if anything weird happens. so advice/stories much appreciated.
