Discussion Self-harm without self hate?

[leangenerator]

Does anyone else self-harm without self hate? I like the way the scars look and i like the process; am I just super ill? I've been wanting to become better but I don't want to stop harming.

 

[martyrdom]

I don't hate myself at all and I self harm quite a lot.

 

[underairpressure]

I'm the same, the vast majority of my self-harm isn't motivated by negative feelings or self-hate. My scars are one of the only parts about myself I like, honestly....... and. Idk, I just feel this "want" to do it, it just feels good and Right to me, to self-injure.

I always feel like an alien talking about it in SH circles, though, since most other people seem to do it to deal with negative emotions

 

[leangenerator]

I'm the same, the vast majority of my self-harm isn't motivated by negative feelings or self-hate. My scars are one of the only parts about myself I like, honestly....... and. Idk, I just feel this "want" to do it, it just feels good and Right to me, to self-injure.

I always feel like an alien talking about it in SH circles, though, since most other people seem to do it to deal with negative emotions

Well, i feel the exact same xP

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's an interesting question. I don't self harm much and, not severely. I'm too squemish for cutting. I used to whack myself over the head with things or, slap myself in the face. But- that was more motivated by self hatred. Or more like very intense frustration with myself.

There again, if I hurt myself accidentally, a part of me enjoys the expression of feeling pain. That isn't self hatred. That's more an outward representation/ manifestation of what's going on emotionally anyway.

 

[lilies.in.heaven]

For me, it was simply feeling something intense, not mattering what I put my body through

I consider my times with cocaine also a kind of self harm