Scared

[noname223]

I am scared to send my lecturers the mail that I quit their courses. I will to it tomorrow. Saturday was the plan. I am not sure about the wording whether I should name health or mental health issues.

A lot of my actions are influenced which decision is the best for dating. I think attending college courses would theoretically better. But I become more and more paranoid because of the stress. I start to think that every woman (in my age) who I talk to would be interested in me. I even had the feeling with a lecturer of mine.

There was a woman in a course who I seemingly impressed with my knowledge. I had the feeling she might be interested in me. Last time we spoke to each other. But that is probably paranoid. She does not know dick about me. Even if a woman was interested in me in one of my two courses they would not like the actual me. I had a conversation with her and she probaly has twice, or 3 times more courses than me. I am not actually impressive I am just really severely neurotic so that it is really paralyzing.

I am more interested in the woman from my self-help group. She just starts therapy. Do therapists often suggest to concentrate on oneself? I think this is quite common. I try not to get my hopes up. But I struggle with that. She looks like my dream girl.

In my emergency call with a friend we analyzed the situation. When I am in college I am in so much pain and under so much pressure that I hallucinate. I have love delusions and hope that a woman saves me from this hell. But witt so much pain I cannot think rationally. I am more delusional. So the long answer is quitting college is better (for my life expectancy I would try to ctb in a couple of months)) and probably better for dating. It is clearly the right choice health related.

 

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Are you "quitting"?

If you're leaving for health reasons, this is more along the lines of "leaving school to look after your health". The dictionary will tell you this qualifies as "quitting", but the term has negative connotations and it could be a disservice to yourself to frame this as such.

I've had to do the same thing before -- telling people (including professors) that I was leaving school. I don't recall the details about how I handled it, other than to say I "just got through it" despite all the anxiety...

But whatever you're worried about as far as writing those messages, one thing you can do is ask yourself questions that challenge those worries: For example, what's the worst that could happen if you tell them you've dropped their courses? What's the best case scenario? What's the most likely scenario? Even if your worst case scenario was to happen, would it actually be unbearable, or would you be able to withstand it? These types of questions can sometimes help lessen those worries.

Wishing you well in finding some calmness, my friend.

 

[noname223]

Are you "quitting"?

If you're leaving for health reasons, this is more along the lines of "leaving school to look after your health". The dictionary will tell you this qualifies as "quitting", but the term has negative connotations and it could be a disservice to yourself to frame this as such.

I've had to do the same thing before -- telling people (including professors) that I was leaving school. I don't recall the details about how I handled it, other than to say I "just got through it" despite all the anxiety...

But whatever you're worried about as far as writing those messages, one thing you can do is ask yourself questions that challenge those worries: For example, what's the worst that could happen if you tell them you've dropped their courses? What's the best case scenario? What's the most likely scenario? Even if your worst case scenario was to happen, would it actually be unbearable, or would you be able to withstand it? These types of questions can sometimes help lessen those worries.

Wishing you well in finding some calmness, my friend.

I simply could not handle the pain any longer. I would attempt in some months again otherwise.

It was not an easy decision but the right one. I described it in earlier threads.

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