
SchizoGymnast
Mage
- May 28, 2024
- 576
So... I'm stepping waaaaaaay outside my comfort zone and designing my own charity event. I will be writing my own literature. I asked about applying for a permit. I'm thinking about advertising. I'm super excited.
And yet I'm terrified.
I feel like my ambitions are always waaaaaaay more lofty than my energy or skill set can handle. I am fundamentally incapable of accurately judging the time, money and effort it will take to do something. I don't want to let people down.
I could just NOT do this. That's an option too, and there's no penalty for doing that, but there's something that drives me. If I keep playing small, my life will never offer anything of value. And I don't learn anything.
I have until late September. Let's gooooo.
And yet I'm terrified.
I feel like my ambitions are always waaaaaaay more lofty than my energy or skill set can handle. I am fundamentally incapable of accurately judging the time, money and effort it will take to do something. I don't want to let people down.
I could just NOT do this. That's an option too, and there's no penalty for doing that, but there's something that drives me. If I keep playing small, my life will never offer anything of value. And I don't learn anything.
I have until late September. Let's gooooo.