Relapse

[Chronic]

Have spent months trying to help someone and they are ungrateful and hurt me emotionally recently and it's caused me to relapse. Not sure I'm going to make it out of this one. The person doesn't even know or care and I think I'll keep it to myself. Got everything to end it and had it ready for a while. Wish I had some nembutal and should probably order some because I'll likely chicken out and keep living this endlessly painful life. I don't even know why I am posting here. Just at a loss I suppose and have nobody that cares and likely never will again. I'm tired of crying.

 

[theboy]

I hope you get up from this fall. Without a doubt, there are people who do not value help and are selfish.

 

[timf]

The hurt you feel is to be expected from someone who could not appreciate what you had to give. The fact that you gave of yourself unreservedly is indicative of a heart with the capacity for love. The trick is to find someone who can be appreciative.