Rudi
𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬
- Oct 15, 2024
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Decided to start a recovery diary (and also just a diary in general like for venting and stuff if needed) in hopes that this will help me a little during my process.
Starting this on May 13th 2025 !! :3
In my last post I mentioned that I give up on recovering. Proud to say that I changed my mind. As bad as my life is currently going I believe I can recover if I want to. I feel like I will relapse sooner or later but it's worth another shot, no? I have failed four attempts 'til now, so I believe that there is some hope for me. Sometimes (most of the time, actually) I wish those attempts would've been a success, but they ended up not being that. Might aswell make something out of it.
To start off - a small introduction !!:
My birthday is soon and I really want to feel just a tad bit better until then and I'm actually hopeful. Life is giving me opportunities, so I guess I could make something out of them.
I actually drank an entire liter of water today! Considering how I barely drink any water and mostly forget to do so, I think this is a huge step :3 and I actually ate some food. More than usual. Yippe!!
Can't say much about today overall. It wasn't a good day but I guess it could be worse. Happy to have achieved some stuff atleast. :D
I'm pessimistic and optimistic about this aaghh
Starting this on May 13th 2025 !! :3
In my last post I mentioned that I give up on recovering. Proud to say that I changed my mind. As bad as my life is currently going I believe I can recover if I want to. I feel like I will relapse sooner or later but it's worth another shot, no? I have failed four attempts 'til now, so I believe that there is some hope for me. Sometimes (most of the time, actually) I wish those attempts would've been a success, but they ended up not being that. Might aswell make something out of it.
To start off - a small introduction !!:
I guess I should start off by introducing myself just a little bit! :D
My name's Rudi (wow) and no, I'm not a girl and yes that name is short for Rudolf (call me anything but Rudolf)
In case anyone is interested in wanting to know what I look like, here's a face reveal:
I'm tired 24/7, this explains me pretty well! :3
I have a few fav songs which are also my comfort songs, and they would be these:
1119 - Edwin Rosen
New York, Rio, Rosenheim - Sportfreunde Stiller
The way life goes - Lil Uzi Vert, Oh Wonder
Mit dir kann ich alleine sein - Jeremias
The Spins - Mac Miller, Empire of the sun
Right here - Lil Peep
Martin - Carseatheadrest
I love love writing, drawing, reading, stars and, as you can tell, cats. Unfortunately I don't have a cat :( would love to have one tho! (fav breed is nebelung >:3)
And, lastly, I'm from Germany :D but I'm german and turkish.
My name's Rudi (wow) and no, I'm not a girl and yes that name is short for Rudolf (call me anything but Rudolf)
In case anyone is interested in wanting to know what I look like, here's a face reveal:
I'm tired 24/7, this explains me pretty well! :3I have a few fav songs which are also my comfort songs, and they would be these:
1119 - Edwin Rosen
New York, Rio, Rosenheim - Sportfreunde Stiller
The way life goes - Lil Uzi Vert, Oh Wonder
Mit dir kann ich alleine sein - Jeremias
The Spins - Mac Miller, Empire of the sun
Right here - Lil Peep
Martin - Carseatheadrest
I love love writing, drawing, reading, stars and, as you can tell, cats. Unfortunately I don't have a cat :( would love to have one tho! (fav breed is nebelung >:3)
And, lastly, I'm from Germany :D but I'm german and turkish.
My birthday is soon and I really want to feel just a tad bit better until then and I'm actually hopeful. Life is giving me opportunities, so I guess I could make something out of them.
I actually drank an entire liter of water today! Considering how I barely drink any water and mostly forget to do so, I think this is a huge step :3 and I actually ate some food. More than usual. Yippe!!
Can't say much about today overall. It wasn't a good day but I guess it could be worse. Happy to have achieved some stuff atleast. :D
I'm pessimistic and optimistic about this aaghh
