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sanction

sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
710
Definitely 100.

I'm so sick and tired of life's never ending TO DO LISTS. It just never fucking ends. Always one thing after another

Everytime you think you finally got something done and out of the way, the very next thing just pops up out of nowhere, and this cycle keeps repeating itself endlessly

Just so damn tired of this torture existence. Truly can't wait for it to end
 
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Quantum_Marten0302

Member
Nov 16, 2025
97
id say 40/100 i wouldnt say im tired and i dont feel like i have a to do lost, other than the things i need to do just cause im human, but i want to do those things, some of them i cant and thats the issue
 
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SuicidalAngel

Member
Nov 1, 2023
14
80-90. I'm tired of living in constant pain (both mental and physical).
 
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WakingNightmare

WakingNightmare

Student
May 1, 2025
145
About 60, I dont have much to do, barely anything actually when you think about it.
But the few tasks I have to do feel like unbearable burdens. Only rated 60 because I know it can get worse
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
100
 
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indianachrome

indianachrome

Member
Nov 1, 2025
81
100. Productive life would be great filled with happiness and joy but right now this isn't living. I would take stomach cancer and be gone in 3 weeks - lots of morphine and a fast departure.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,644
I'm off the scale. 110+ at this point.
 
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RunDown

RunDown

Getting ready to go
Jun 18, 2025
84
92.76291827352829
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

I’ll be dead one day
Mar 15, 2025
669
95
 
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natori

natori

Que Sera, Sera—Whatever Will Be, Will Be.
Nov 26, 2025
125
A solid 85
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,314
100 out of 100, i have the most tiredness , the utmost disgust for anything in this hellscape. i'm tired of everything about life and this world

the "enjoyable" pleasure addictions i hate the most because it's those that fool me, distract me and waste my time , precious time i could be using to get my suicide method ready to go and defeating si etc so i can finally do it and escape this hell.

i just told an ai off telling them i'm glad the universe will end and expand to nothingness making life impossible forever ... there will be nothing forever

in a trillion to the quadrillionth power years there will be nothing to remember such a horrible abomination as life and this world ever existed
 
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darkandtwisty

darkandtwisty

Student
Jul 10, 2024
145
100% done.
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Mr.Tristesse

Ужас ужасов
Jul 23, 2022
4,907
Infinity. I don't want anymore at all
 
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compulsoryaliveness

compulsoryaliveness

Member
Oct 6, 2024
62
95
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Self sabotaging day #178406
Aug 30, 2025
157
76.8
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
100
 
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Still here

Student
Feb 11, 2025
151
1000000000000000000...
 
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uzl lover

uzl lover

he/him
Aug 22, 2025
27
67
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,801
Always 100 as I'm just always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake, all I want is to be gone, I just always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently so finally I can be at peace from the abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. I find it so horrible how a human can suffer in this dreadful existence for so long just to face the agony of old age, I always feel so tired and it's tiredness only eternal sleep can take away for me, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.
 
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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
85 sounds about right. I can still enjoy some little things about life :)
 
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HansaNull

HansaNull

the last color turning gray
Dec 4, 2025
34
75
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,194
I feel like I'm at 100 but, I also feel the need to pretend or, to try to convince myself I'm at 80-90. It's not really happening though. I'm bed rotting again.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,566
I'm bed rotting again.
It's the worst. I've done whole weekends.

100.

It's not even just my depression. Most of life is chasing money to buy stuff. Bills. Things that break down. God forbid medical expenses.

It's just a stupid cycle. Pointless.
 
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natori

natori

Que Sera, Sera—Whatever Will Be, Will Be.
Nov 26, 2025
125
85 sounds about right. I can still enjoy some little things about life :)

Omg twiiins, by the way I like your forum join date c:
 
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Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
Omg twiiins, by the way I like your forum join date c:
Shush, they are going to find out you are my second account. 🤫
 
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rustybee

rustybee

19F
Dec 8, 2025
7
90
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
♾️ /10 fuck this shit lol
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,131
100
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
542
Probably about 80. I'm fed up of adulting it's too much effort. I get majorily annoyed if I actually have to do something on my day off like go to the doctors or whatever bulllshit I have to sort out.
 
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