Question to all: What would make this life worth living for you?

[Ko9]

So, if you could wish for anything, anyone, any scenario, could be more than one: what would make you want to continue living?
It could be living in a dream you ones had (like with me), be a person in a music video on loop, be filthy rich or these things combined, having a relationship with a celebrity or being the king or queen of England.

 

[Now_And_Then]

Nothing , it is the state of the world I am mainly waiting for the bus for , my mental problems are secondary

 

[not_a_robot]

Financial independence. It's not a goal in itself, but enough money to isolate myself would cure most of my problems until old age.
And it's never going to happen now, because now my therapists know I stand to inherit a large sum of money, and the second I do, they will snatch it from me.
So the only thing that will make my life worth living now is if I got to watch all these conniving whores get run over by a train or burn to death in a fire.

 

[WinterIsComing]

I dunno anymore.. money I guess

 

[Feline Fine]

I have to agree with Now_And_Then that the state the world is in is the biggest problem. All of the corrupt systems we live under play a large part in making people like us that feel the need to find community through wanting to die, even if it's not always obvious. And even then I'd think many of us are better off than a lot of the other victims of these structures.

If I was to say only the things I'd need to make my life better, it'd be the treatments and medication I've been consistently denied and been unable to get so that I can start building a life for myself and go outside like a person again.
I'd need a way to get rid of all the damage my body has gone through living how I do, I'd need to feel like people would treat me like one of them rather than something lesser.
I'm not sure if there's a way to work through the mental issues I have even in a dream scenario. I think if I ever did get to a point where I'd want to keep going I'd have to have made peace with the fact my brain will always suck. I'm not sure I could see myself deciding just to bear with that forever.

I'd really like a partner I could dedicate myself to that wouldn't abandon me, I do a lot better when I have someone I can focus on making happy.
I'd appreciate not having to worry about the DWP taking away everything I have to live on, just not having to worry about money in general.
It would be great to have the creativity I used to have back, and a space with all sorts of tools so I could make things.
I'd also love to find community so I could feel accepted and less alone, and I'd like the chance to create with other people.

But yeah. Mostly, I'd just like to live in the world that doesn't kick people when they're down. Then maybe none of us would have to be here. It's hard to separate my need for a better world from what would make my life worth living, when the world is pretty much manufactured to break people like me.

I'm sorry I write so much, I guess it all spills out at once when I get the chance.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Nothing, absolutely nothing, would make me want to keep living. The problem is not with what happens while I'm alive, the problem is with life itself. A life, no matter how perfect it is, is still a life, and I just can't stand any form of life. Awareness and me are just not a good match.

 

[Deleted member 4288]

Two weeks ago I would say - money. Now I can say for sure that absolutely nothing would make me wanna live.

Maybe drugs. Drugs that are pumped into you non-stop and put you in a forever state of happiness and lucid dreaming, where you create your own world without pain.

Maybe I would choose that over death, maybe...

Some people are just incompatible with life and awareness.

 

[Kuolema]

Understanding the Big Picture not the pointless little pictures.

 

[not_a_robot]

Two weeks ago I would say - money. Now I can say for sure that absolutely nothing would make me wanna live.

Maybe drugs. Drugs that are pumped into you non-stop and put you in a forever state of happiness and lucid dreaming, where you create your own world without pain.

Maybe I would choose that over death, maybe...

Some people are just incompatible with life and awareness.

The drugs you describe are opiates and bonus, they are frequently lethal.

 

[mold]

not saying money would solve everything, but financial stability would make some issues easier

 

[Final Escape]

Financial stability. I wouldn't care if I remained poor if it didn't mean you're goin to die on the street or be jailed for being too poor.

 

[JoeFailure]

Honestly just a good job I could do with my ADHD and anxiety issues.

 

[lostangel]

To feel like a normal human and not a freak

 

[Empty Smile]

Nothing. I'm nearly 50, I've seen all I've wanted to see. Life is a joke, and there is nothing that makes me want to participate in it anymore.

 

[Going Home]

Life would be worth living to me if my life REALLY belonged to me. There's no point if my life belongs to a doctor, someone else who needs to feel their authority, or some person with law enforcement contacts who encourages me to kill myself because I don't matter.

 

[Grey-zone]

Enough money to do enough of what I would want to do in life, maybe 70% of it at least, and live as fearlessly as I'm capable of.

 

[NostalgiaOnFire]

Mostly a different brain.

But if I couldn't have that, I'd want a clean criminal record, the ability to use my nursing degree to get licensed as an RN, and the will power to start taking care of myself again after all the neglect.

 

[tomz323]

I think I good upbringing in a loving home with good friends and family. I'm trying to catch up on that now.

 

[blanketyblk]

Nothing. I'm nearly 50, I've seen all I've wanted to see. Life is a joke, and there is nothing that makes me want to participate in it anymore.

Ahem!! i can't see life getting any better. i've had my day in the sun. i have fun. i've been loved and loved someone. i have great friends and family i have good holidays. now all there is for me is to age and watch the world go by, while i get ignored..

 

[Empty Smile]

Ahem!! i can't see life getting any better. i've had my day in the sun. i have fun. i've been loved and loved someone. i have great friends and family i have good holidays. now all there is for me is to age and watch the world go by, while i get ignored..

I almost kept your tradition alive by ignoring you, but I couldn't do that to a fellow SS member...

I've had all you mentioned, good holidays, friends, family, I have loved and been loved... And suddenly it all comes to a screeching halt. What I had is no longer there, it's me outside looking in, me against the world.

 

[Xaphous]

Having a normal chance at life, not permanently isolated single and unemployed. Apparently that's too much to ask for though.

 

[Bagger]

Acceptance and someone who truly loves me. Someone to talk about my problems. Any of them. Meds that DO THE JOB and fix my phobias. Job that can support me, without the need of any interaction with others. Normal look. I think that these things would make my life worth living.

 

[foreverbroken28]

Either winning a huge lottery so I could move and pay for all of my health issues or the man I am in love with to actually love me back and show it. Both are 99.999999dshbsjdj7278w8% unlikely to happen.

 

[not_a_robot]

To be invisible.

I almost kept your tradition alive by ignoring you, but I couldn't do that to a fellow SS member...

I've had all you mentioned, good holidays, friends, family, I have loved and been loved... And suddenly it all comes to a screeching halt. What I had is no longer there, it's me outside looking in, me against the world.

I don't get it.
I love watching the world go by, even just in a cynical way. I love being ignored, human interference never brought me anything but pain. I love never having to share the remote, walking around the house naked, never worrying about waking someone up at night because he has to work in the morning, watching tv til five a.m. if I feel like it.
I only felt life was meaningless when I was surrounded by others.Remember what that's like? Being scolded every time you speak your mind? Shutting yourself down in order to "fit in"? And failing anyway?
Fuck that shit. I'm no masochist. I fucking LOVE being alone. I love me.

 

[Subhuman]

1. Be mentally healthy
2. Be physically healthy
3. Be happy / Have will to live

Not sure how to word the 3rd one. But I'd have to feel like life is beautiful, just like the people who face all kinds of adversities and still talk about how wonderful life is and how glad they are they overcame their challenges. I've never felt that way, I can't even imagine that feeling. But I see it in others and I think it makes all the difference.

Money, love and other luxuries I can take or leave, but without these 3 things there's no point in being alive. It's not even being alive to be honest, it's just a colossal waste of time, space and resources.

 

[keara]

Never having to worry about anything. A life where you just enjoy the beauty of the world without responsibilities. Which is impossible.

 

[Shamana]

Good somatic health

 

[Rukia]

Perspective of good eternal afterlife without hell...

 

[AngelGirl]

Sadly money... I feel like I can solve most of my problems if I was filthy rich. This is very sad..

Never having to worry about anything. A life where you just enjoy the beauty of the world without responsibilities. Which is impossible.

Sometimes I fantasize about living in complete isolation. In the woods. Sometimes I see articles of people doing that in the middle of Siberia. No contact with other people, you just live a self sufficient life.

 

[262653]

I wonder how it is like to work for a living how do people do this without experiencing active suicidal ideation. The whole idea sound preposterous to me because I never had a job in my entire life, and don't view this kind of lifestyle as worthwhile. I'm curious as of how it's like to be raised without overprotective parents -- or no parents at all -- having no one to rely upon... Having so shitty life from the start, without a safe haven, that I probably wouldn't even think of suicide. Just a fleeting little thought...