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lavenderlilylies

lavenderlilylies

Student
Sep 24, 2024
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I wanna preface by clarifying that I'm not actually planning this for the near future, I'm just contemplating the idea.

In my tiny community, it's likely that my attempt will make it into national news. Lately, I've been seriously considering increasing that possibility by making it public myself, at least by posting a note prior or doing it in a public location.

I won't get any sympathy from the community, I'm the embodiment of everything they campaign against. What I want to make known is that their messaging isn't helping anyone, that they can't erase the existence of people like me, and that my seemingly perfectly good life on paper is nothing but. To put it simply, I'm bitter, and I know people will speculate, so why not tell them exactly what hurt me.

I also want to be known by the people who share my story, I'm certain there are more of them than I would guess. Even when I'm dead, especially when I'm dead, I want them to know my name.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Mage
May 28, 2024
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I've thought the same thing many times. Picked out a location and a significant date.
 
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Ch4in3dcr0w

Ch4in3dcr0w

if u ever see me happy just kill me
Jun 21, 2025
208
Decision is up to you and what statment u might or the lack of statment u want to do with your suicide if it makes u feel that u might have a impact and feel its the right thing to do go for it. I guess my biggest statment would be blowing my brain out infront of all the people that hurt me in some way but i personally steer away from making those thoughts reality as i want my future suicide to be intimate and personal to those i care about 🤗
 
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