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happy2die

happy2die

Student
Nov 5, 2025
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would any anxiety meds work? are there other ones that work better? I know there are some that build up in the system for a couple weeks for it to work so those probably would be a no go
 
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Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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would any anxiety meds work? are there other ones that work better? I know there are some that build up in the system for a couple weeks for it to work so those probably would be a no go
I will drink whisky before i do full hanging. The alcohol definitely helps to make you more fearless and somehow it even motivates me to really finally kill myself because it creates flashbacks of my past and makes me realize how terrible my life always was how much I suffered in every chapter of life and then well then its not too difficult to say fuck it those 15 seconds are nothing compared to this shit life and compared to what will only wait for me the next day, week, month……
 
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happy2die

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Nov 5, 2025
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I will drink whisky before i do full hanging. The alcohol definitely helps to make you more fearless and somehow it even motivates me to really finally kill myself because it creates flashbacks of my past and makes me realize how terrible my life always was how much I suffered in every chapter of life and then well then its not too difficult to say fuck it those 15 seconds are nothing compared to this shit life and compared to what will only wait for me the next day, week, month……
i can't legally obtain alcohol bc I'm 19 😭 I have tried my method sober a couple times but si stopped me both times. it's a lot stronger than you'd think but whiskey would definitely help. I'm sorry your life has led you to this decision.
 
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Terrible_Life

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i can't legally obtain alcohol bc I'm 19 😭 I have tried my method sober a couple times but si stopped me both times. it's a lot stronger than you'd think but whiskey would definitely help. I'm sorry your life has led you to this decision.
So you live in America i guess because in europe you could buy every whisky etc you want. Is the law really so strict in the u.s. ? I mean you guys are allowed to drive a car alone with 15 i think but no whisky with 19 ?
Could you maybe somehow get some beer even that would neutralize si a lot
 
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TheEndIsPeace

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Yes Benzo's can help alleviate the SI, but at the end of the day it all depends on how strongly you want this. As for the alcohol, you could always make your own, that's what I am planning to do since I come from a shithole country that banned alcohol.
 
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happy2die

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Nov 5, 2025
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You could ask someone to boot for you…
honestly getting prescription meds would be A LOTT easier since I have a psychiatrist and I have an appointment coming up soon
So you live in America i guess because in europe you could buy every whisky etc you want. Is the law really so strict in the u.s. ? I mean you guys are allowed to drive a car alone with 15 i think but no whisky with 19 ?
Could you maybe somehow get some beer even that would neutralize si a lot
in some states you can even buy guns at 18 😭 that's america for u.
Yes Benzo's can help alleviate the SI, but at the end of the day it all depends on how strongly you want this. As for the alcohol, you could always make your own, that's what I am planning to do since I come from a shithole country that banned alcohol.
unfortunately college dorms limit how much I can do that.
 
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