Laststop
Experienced
- Jul 9, 2019
- 243
I just remembered a thought I had in my teens. Adults were always trying to get you think about (and tell them...they LOVE making you tell them) your plans for adulthood. At least, when I was a kid. I'm not around them much now, so I don't know if this is still a thing? I know I've never done it to kids; even relative ones.But when I was a young I didn't think about adulthood, except for fantasy stuff I was pretty sure even I realized was just fantasy. My feeling was always, "leave me alone!", when they did this. One day though, while a teen in the 1980s, I thought about the turn of the Century. Giving it thought I kind of made a big deal out of it in my mind. What would it mean for all of us? Will it be a marked difference? Will we finally have flying cars? Then it occurred to me that I'd be 30! My thought after that was, "I'll be well out of youth, and well into adulthood at 30. What will my life be like being 30?" Conventional wisdom says I should of had all sorts of thoughts on this. But I didn't. I drew a complete blank. I saw the image from the lectures from adults. Job, shelter, and bills. Taking care of one's self. But it wasn't of me. It was so one dementional. Totally "stock" images. Like on paper, and just as lacking in depth. The images being of other people, and a cursory professional photo shoot, like for a pamphlet that adults might have handed me to pound the point they were making home. I realize I never had thoughts on my life outside of my fanasy one. Only when I became an adult did it include some reality, and now I can see I was fooling myself.
