I think my time is tomorrow but I am so scared. My parents were showing each other videos on their phones in the other room and I heard some songs I haven't heard in a long time. It made me realise how many things I would do for the last time, when normally I wouldn't really think about it. That was probably the last time I will ever hear those songs or ever hear them showing each other videos. There will be a last time I ever see their face and they ever see mine. I have a hotel booked already to use SN in but it all depends on what my ex says, if she even replies. Sounds fucked up but she's treated me like shit and been so cruel to me ever since we split up and is the sole reason I even have all of this planned out. No idea how I ended up here but I am so sad and so angry.
