Personality disorders and suicide

[Greyhawk]

I was recently diagnosed with depressive personality (which isn't in the dsm anymore) and avoidant personality disorder. I suspected that I might have apd before I got the diagnosis and I feel like they have a big impact on my suicidal ideation because they cause me to socially isolate myself and feel feel like shit all the time. I feel like I'm subhuman, below everyone else.

On the bright side guess I've got some hope since personality disorders can be treated. Are you diagnosed or do you suspect that you might have a personality disorder/disorders? How much does it contribute to your suicidal ideation?

 

[Britney Spears]

When I recently left the psychiatric clinic, I was diagnosed with mixed personality disorder. My desire to ctb isn't due to my disorder itself, nor to the previous diagnoses psychiatrists have given me (depression, anxiety, OCD, amnesia, among others, and whatever else they want to add). It's due to the daily pain and suffering I endure, and only I understand it. No one knows you better than you do. On the outside, diagnoses are like labels, but inside, there is constant agony and torture

 

[Ligottian]

Cluster C Personality Disorder. Look it up. Along with anxiety and depression. Ain't I a mess.

 

[patheticparasite]

What @Ligottian said. AvPD in my case.

 

[Paizen]

I was recently diagnosed with depressive personality (which isn't in the dsm anymore) and avoidant personality disorder. I suspected that I might have apd before I got the diagnosis and I feel like they have a big impact on my suicidal ideation because they cause me to socially isolate myself and feel feel like shit all the time. I feel like I'm subhuman, below everyone else.

On the bright side guess I've got some hope since personality disorders can be treated. Are you diagnosed or do you suspect that you might have a personality disorder/disorders? How much does it contribute to your suicidal ideation?

Honestly fuck a personality disorder. A personality disorder is a "set of maladaptive traits that are enduring and not treatable" which is just a bullshit way of people saying they don't like your behavior. I have a useless degree in psych from years ago and I got As but when I took my personality course I wrote a whole essay basically telling my teacher to fuck off because you can't put people in boxes.

I also have "avoidant prsonality disorder" uh no I just know when to walk the fuck away from shit. I evolved a lot quicker than most because I avoid nonsense, and yeah I might be here but that's only because I have shitty parents.

 

[Sergeant45]

I am in denial of all of my diagnostics - one of them is in fact a personality disorder though. I'll give you one hint: the entire performative part of mental health community hates people with my disorder and it is not BPD.

I think it does play into my ''suicidality'' (in quotes because I am at peace with it, and not suicidal in an impulsive way). I would probably be more determined to live if I hadn't developed mental illness alongside physical. However I believe that it does not make the things I say and think about suicide invalid. I do try to see things from outside perspective even if I disagree.

 

[Paizen]

I am in denial of all of my diagnostics - one of them is in fact a personality disorder though. I'll give you one hint: the entire performative part of mental health community hates people with my disorder and it is not BPD.

I think it does play into my ''suicidality'' (in quotes because I am at peace with it, and not suicidal in an impulsive way). I would probably be more determined to live if I hadn't developed mental illness alongside physical. However I believe that it does not make the things I say and think about suicide invalid. I do try to see things from outside perspective even if I disagree.

ASPD?

 

[Cinnamorolls]

I am in denial of all of my diagnostics - one of them is in fact a personality disorder though. I'll give you one hint: the entire performative part of mental health community hates people with my disorder and it is not BPD.

I think it does play into my ''suicidality'' (in quotes because I am at peace with it, and not suicidal in an impulsive way). I would probably be more determined to live if I hadn't developed mental illness alongside physical. However I believe that it does not make the things I say and think about suicide invalid. I do try to see things from outside perspective even if I disagree.

Gotta be NPD, right? Not gonna lie, I'd be surprised to see someone like that on a suicide forum.

 

[FoxSauce]

I have BPD which yeah it sucks like any other disorder.

How does that contribute to my suicidal ideation. Anxiety. Arguments. Loneliness. Intense depressive episode. Abandoment and other things but thats all I can name in the top of my head.

Im no doctor so

 

[theboy]

I feel you
When you are diagnosed with a disorder, you feel like crap... it happens to me. Besides, the social stigma is still present and doing CTB is like an "escape" from taking pills

 

[L9 CHOCOIRL]

I was recently diagnosed with depressive personality (which isn't in the dsm anymore) and avoidant personality disorder. I suspected that I might have apd before I got the diagnosis and I feel like they have a big impact on my suicidal ideation because they cause me to socially isolate myself and feel feel like shit all the time. I feel like I'm subhuman, below everyone else.

On the bright side guess I've got some hope since personality disorders can be treated. Are you diagnosed or do you suspect that you might have a personality disorder/disorders? How much does it contribute to your suicidal ideation?

i have schizoaffective disorder (when schizophrenia and a mood disorder are present at the same time, bipolar personally) which before medication made my life extremely hard. caused a whole lot of non sense like torturing mood swings, delusions, hallucinations and yadayada. not fun but thankfully im on meds now so its more manageable

 

[timorousTruant]

Undiagnosed but I'm 99% sure I have AvPD and think I may also have SZPD as well.

AvPD has completely ruined my life. I can't do even basic tasks because I'm so terrified someone will see me doing it "wrong." Just things like taking out the trash or getting the mail takes all of my mental energy and I have to take time to mentally prepare beforehand. And phone calls? Forget it. Driving? No way.

I freak out doing literally everything because I'm so preoccupied with being judged. I can't get it to stop. This disorder has robbed me of my future and I'll never be able to get a proper job or go to college or any of that because I can barely get myself to leave my house. Life is exhausting. Every day is a chore.

 

[avoid]

I suspect I have AvPD too, although I have not taken the steps to be officially diagnosed. I've always put tremendous value on others' perception of me, particularly if their behavior/reactions do not align with what I had imagined. Not knowing what someone really thinks of me is worse than knowing they dislike me, causing my thoughts to linger on anything negative to the extend of being mentally paralyzed for hours if not the entire day. I cut ties with everyone but my parents just to not feel anxiety that comes with social interactions.

 

[starboy2k]

(None of my disorders are diagnosed but there is DEFINITELY traits that matches up)

NPD
BPD
ASD
BBBD (this is honestly the only "ok" disorder I have, the rest sucks)

 

[karakoltriste]

I've been diagnosed with severe BPD, but I honestly don't like that label. I think there's overdiagnosis and a lot of misogyny and abuse toward people with this diagnosis. For me, it all stems from trauma. I've also been diagnosed with PTSD, and I agree with that, except I don't think it's a "disorder" or an "illness." It's primarily trauma that gives me suicidal thoughts.

 

[frayed]

I've been diagnosed with severe BPD, but I honestly don't like that label. I think there's overdiagnosis and a lot of misogyny and abuse toward people with this diagnosis. For me, it all stems from trauma. I've also been diagnosed with PTSD, and I agree with that, except I don't think it's a "disorder" or an "illness." It's primarily trauma that gives me suicidal thoughts.

If we assume PTSD, cptsd, and bpd are on the same spectrum

 

[Higurashi415]

I was recently diagnosed with depressive personality (which isn't in the dsm anymore) and avoidant personality disorder. I suspected that I might have apd before I got the diagnosis and I feel like they have a big impact on my suicidal ideation because they cause me to socially isolate myself and feel feel like shit all the time. I feel like I'm subhuman, below everyone else.

On the bright side guess I've got some hope since personality disorders can be treated. Are you diagnosed or do you suspect that you might have a personality disorder/disorders? How much does it contribute to your suicidal ideation?

I think most current labels and diagnosis are arbitrary, and medical treatment for most diagnosis is so bad and lackluster that it's fair to say that the whole system needs an almost complete overhaul. The whole personality disorders thing stems from the idea of an incurable mental illness, and about this... yeah, if I believed this was a thing I'd be pretty sad if I was diagnosed with one. Due to the way it's defined, it feels like a death sentence. For what it's worth... no one can really say in the current state of things if personality disorders are even a thing, I wouldn't worry too much about that specific aspect. Cases like yours are part of my argument against the existence of this type of diagnosis... what good does it do to tell a person loud and clear that they'll NEVER get better? And how tf can you even know that they will NEVER get better? What good is a label if it does more harm than good?

 

[Ligottian]

Damn, you guys are a lot more acronym savvy than I am.

 

[karakoltriste]

I think most current labels and diagnosis are arbitrary, and medical treatment for most diagnosis is so bad and lackluster that it's fair to say that the whole system needs an almost complete overhaul. The whole personality disorders thing stems from the idea of an incurable mental illness, and about this... yeah, if I believed this was a thing I'd be pretty sad if I was diagnosed with one. Due to the way it's defined, it feels like a death sentence. For what it's worth... no one can really say in the current state of things if personality disorders are even a thing, I wouldn't worry too much about that specific aspect. Cases like yours are part of my argument against the existence of this type of diagnosis... what good does it do to tell a person loud and clear that they'll NEVER get better? And how tf can you even know that they will NEVER get better? What good is a label if it does more harm than good?

THIS!!
Very well explained, thank you.

 

[Greyhawk]

Undiagnosed but I'm 99% sure I have AvPD and think I may also have SZPD as well.

AvPD has completely ruined my life. I can't do even basic tasks because I'm so terrified someone will see me doing it "wrong." Just things like taking out the trash or getting the mail takes all of my mental energy and I have to take time to mentally prepare beforehand. And phone calls? Forget it. Driving? No way.

I freak out doing literally everything because I'm so preoccupied with being judged. I can't get it to stop. This disorder has robbed me of my future and I'll never be able to get a proper job or go to college or any of that because I can barely get myself to leave my house. Life is exhausting. Every day is a chore.

This sounds a lot like me. I have been trying to work on my extreme social anxiety mostly via exposure therapy for a while and maybe I've achieved some slight improvements but I always seem to regress back to "normal". Just going outside during the day feels so difficult and I sometimes start shaking and getting dizzy when I'm around people.