Permanent brain damage from psych meds

[Trisolaris]

Has anyone here been damaged by psych meds, this being their main reason to CTB?
I've been crippled by SSRIs so I'm emotionally numb while being restless and anxious at the same time.

 

[R_N]

Yes. Not being able to sleep is the main reason for me.

 

[BlueWidow]

I was forced to take psych meds starting at age 13. This was before the SSRIs were put on the market. I was on a "mood elevator" called Anentyl and an antipsychotic med called Stelazine. Those were the two drugs I was forced to take the entire time from age 13-18. But also during this period, I was a ward of the state, and they could give me any drug they wanted and I was forced to take it no matter whether it helped me or what it did to me. I know I was forced to take all kinds of other drugs that I don't remember the names of for various periods of time at the same time as the two drugs above.
I was in my 20s when the SSRIs came on the market and were being hailed as "miracle drugs" for those with depression and other psychiatric disorders. I went through a whole range of SSRIs, but none of them ever made me feel any different than I did when I didn't take them. I quit every one of them on my own because none of them did anything. They were like expensive sugar pills.
I've always wished I could get a scan of my brain because I'm 100% positive I have damage and changes in my brain that were caused by all of those medications.
I was on Paxil for 3 or so years. Again, I have no proof, because the drug companies would never admit it, but I think the Paxil had something to do with my thyroid problems starting early.
Thyroid issues run in my family and my mom and 2 of my sisters also had thyroid issues to some degree, but they all started having problems in their very late 30s or early 40s. I started having problems when I was 25.

 

[deflagrat]

Invega gave me flat affect (no emotions) and anhedonia. After discontinuing the treatment the anhedonia got better, but the flat affect is still there like the first day. It's really shitty but it could be worse.

 

[WilliamKline]

SSRIs killed my libido, when I get off them I'm a sexmachine

 

[JSauter]

Been on and off SSRIs for 18+ years. Any of the side effects that I get on them go away when I get off of them. Nothing permanent (yet).

 

[Puteminacoffin]

I got injected with invega 6 months ago and I havnt been the same since. Nowhere close to my old self. Seems pretty permanent at this point. My memory is gone and cant think straight so I'm getting pretty tired in general.

 

[Squiddy]

Abilify maintenna gave me bad brain fog

 

[Wayfaerer]

I noticed that I was more anxious and depressed when I got off of SSRI's for the first time than before I was ever on them. Took Prozac from 14-17 and Celexa then Lexapro from ages 20-24. I never, ever want to get back on them again. Hell, an action I made while taking them is the entire reason why I'm even on this site to begin with.

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes I am brain damaged badly

 

[Anathema]

I've been on sertraline and some different antipsychotics for a while, I have short term memory loss and brain fog all day. Takes enormous effort to study

 

[Azzy69]

I was on ssris for years and even after coming off them my brain never felt the same again

 

[WaitingAround2Die]

I've been on anti-depressants for so long I just don't know how to tell anymore...

 

[mathieu]

I'm not sure. I've taken psych meds for nearly 15 years, since I was a teenager. I don't know if I'd be better off not having taken them. They have done permanent damage to my thyroid. I have to take thyroid hormones now.

 

[Puteminacoffin]

It sucks that I used to love life, and it was taken away from some of us by medication. Bad Brain damage from meds @19?. Not the luckiest. Ordered two lbs of sodium nitrite tho. Whatever is on the other side cant be worse than what meds turned my life into.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

Yes. I think 9 out of 10 people become worse after psychiatric medications. Eventually through neuroplasticity your brain can heal, the biggest key is tappering off your drugs properly and not cold turkey or rapid taper.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm sure my pleasure centers are permanently damaged from ADD meds or should just call it speed. I came off once for some months but I relapsed because not everyone aspect of my life was going to change which then makes u vulnerable to relapse. Dependency cure has to be like a whole life change not just giving up the pills. If your life still sucks it's hard to give up the drugs u use to medicate the situation u are in. Why am I typing all this?

 

[Taki]

My depression permanently altered my brain, I never stuck with meds long enough for them to do much. They never worked anyway.

 

[Cutepoison]

Yes. Not being able to sleep is the main reason for me.

Same. I fucking hate these chemicals, i just want to die

 

[Weakling666]

Psych meds help some people, my sister is living her best life on them.

I however, lost my libido, my ability to sleep without bp meds (which im currently addicted to), lost self-control with anger (am fed sedatives now because my family is afraid of me) and have homicidal thoughts (can't really remember much before medication, (i have memory loss which could also be a side affect of years of anti-psychotics)) that I didn't have before medication.

and guess what

im still depressed
hahaha

 

[miseryh8scompany]

a supposedly harmless, non-psych drug damaged my brain and nervous system just when life was looking bright again. Also been addicted to benzos for years

 

[jrums]

Yes SSRIs caused me permanent emotional numbing, sexual dysfunction, insomnia, physical problems, etc. So stupid taking those things off and on for 18 years. Always hated the side effects anyway. The "cure" was worse than the disease. And the disease was pretty bad.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm pretty sure taking Lurasidone caused my psychosis that eventually lead to my Cotard's Delusion. Now I live each day in a mental prison; hell. I don't want to die, but I know that I have to for this to stop.

Prior to that I was minimally depressed, physically perfectly functioning, and able to hold a job. Now I can't do anything. I don't know why I was prescribed an AP. But I've never been the same since.

 

[chrisbate7]

I was on klonopin and Prozac for 1.5 years. Been off them for 6 months. My anxiety is sooo high. I am restless, agitated and angry most of everyday. This is fueling my desire to CTB. Keep waiting for my brain to heal, but doubtful that's going to happen at this point

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I was on klonopin and Prozac for 1.5 years. Been off them for 6 months. My anxiety is sooo high. I am restless, agitated and angry most of everyday. This is fueling my desire to CTB. Keep waiting for my brain to heal, but doubtful that's going to happen at this point

Those are difficult meds to get off of, or so I've heard. I really hope that things get better for you so that you don't have to CTB. The brain is a scary place sometimes.

 

[chrisbate7]

Those are difficult meds to get off of, or so I've heard. I really hope that things get better for you so that you don't have to CTB. The brain is a scary place sometimes.

Thanks so much. I just don't know how much longer I can endure this level of anxiety and apathy. It is a literal hellscape. I really want to be able to make it to my 1 year anniversary off these drugs. But that's another 6 months....

 

[ThrownAwayTom]

Yeah, I've been on 150mg slow release venlafaxine SSRIs for nearly 3 years. I can't sleep a wink without weed, it takesa lot longer to climax and I have the worst tremor - when I try to show someone something they ask why my hands are shaking like I'm on vibrate.

One day without and the side effects are hell. But it's been so long I really can't tell how I used to "feel" in my head

 

[Yuki Tenuki]

I was on klonopin and Prozac for 1.5 years. Been off them for 6 months. My anxiety is sooo high. I am restless, agitated and angry most of everyday. This is fueling my desire to CTB. Keep waiting for my brain to heal, but doubtful that's going to happen at this point

Maybe you can get some Benzodiazepines like Diazepam or the Gabapentinoid Pregabalin. Despite them being addictive drugs they help me a lot against my anxiety. :/

 

[virginiawoolf86]

Thanks so much. I just don't know how much longer I can endure this level of anxiety and apathy. It is a literal hellscape. I really want to be able to make it to my 1 year anniversary off these drugs. But that's another 6 months....

You can do it. I have faith in you

I honestly didn't think I could make it as far as I did, but here I am. Definitely won't be much longer. But if I can do it, so can you.

 

[Gnip]

I was placed on amphetamines at age seven, then other drugs later in life as I needed treatment for the problems of the incompetent abusers in my life (who never got the treatments I was subjected to).

Yes, I continually wonder what my life would have been like if I'd never been poisoned by school or drugged as a result of going to school. As the late great Karl Hess stated, the school system should be shut down and go out of existence.