outsideness

[a.c.]

i fucking hate going outside
i go outside 1-2 times a month and every time i feel suicidal
i hate talking to anyone irl, i hate it hate it hate it hate it
any time i walk past anyone on the street irl i fantasize about that beating me to death or shooting me or stabbing me
i wish i had anyone to confide in about anything but that will never happen
siiiiiigh sorry for the dumb post i wanted to put this somewhere

 

[Brick In The Wall]

i fucking hate going outside
i go outside 1-2 times a month and every time i feel suicidal
i hate talking to anyone irl, i hate it hate it hate it hate it
any time i walk past anyone on the street irl i fantasize about that beating me to death or shooting me or stabbing me
i wish i had anyone to confide in about anything but that will never happen
siiiiiigh sorry for the dumb post i wanted to put this somewhere

It's not a dumb post and it's good to let it out sometimes. I can't say I hate going outside. But the less I go outside the more I want to stay inside, if that makes any sense.

I do despise crowds of people or the general public at large. Which I guess kinda plays to my favor considering the current circumstances.

 

[a.c.]

i think i have agoraphobia or something..... i hate looking other people in the eyes

 

[a.n.kirillov]

That's a cool word.

 

[listeningpost1379]

oh, same. frankly, i don't want a single connection in my life, i am at my best alone. and being outside is alright and cool but if i could i would just stay home forever. i put a lot of effort into cleaning and maintaining the place i live (:

i still believe it's rude to look people in the eyes. i am not sure but it's probably a western thing.